From Our Father Through Our Father

Last Lord's day evening I received calls from two of my sisters though I could not pick when they both called. Later, as I called them up, I got to learn that our dad went through some injuries, on his head and neck. This led to his health deteriorating so suddenly that he was almost paralyzed. I wasted no time asking my sister to give the phone to dad himself. When I spoke to him he seemed to tell me that everything was alright except that he went through some injuries. I could discern that he did not want me to worry, therefore, he was trying to conform me by telling me that he was fine and that I need not worry. But the fact was different. Then, I spoke to my mom and step-mom to get more detail of what all transpired. 

The following day, my brother called me. In fact, for the first time after at least a year, to tell me of the real situation. Dad had hurt his head and there was blood clogging in his brain that affected his memory. Therefore, he hardly remembers anything and could not come to his real sense. All the medical test shows that he needs immediate intensive care. 

Meanwhile, the offering money me and my wife reserved was confirmed to be transferred to take care of our family's needs this time. Therefore, I transferred it to daddy's account. That was also the Lord's leading in me to offer to our own family this time, unlike other times when the Lord would lead me to offer to the church or to other needy saints. The Lord knows best and I simply must always follow His inner leading. 

I could pray together with my brother, especially for daddy's health. To me, this itself is worth the situation our family has been going through at the moment. I have been praying for my own brother so much. Now, he realized the need for his own revival with family love and bonding through the daddy's situation.  The Lord does allow things like this to gain His children.  Praise the Lord for everything!

Today, it has been confirmed that daddy needed to go through brain surgery in a private hospital which could cost a hefty amount. I fellowshipped with my brother to exercise wisdom in decision making and do the right thing that needs to be done at the moment, in terms of hospitalization, operation, negotiation with doctors, and other practical matters. And I confirmed to him that I will do my best in all possible ways to participate in prayer and in finance as much as the Lord provided us.

Through this situation, I could sense the Lord's recovering our family's love for one another. Not merely among us siblings, but also with my cousins and step-mom too. Even for the expenses, I believe, all the family members will participate, as proof of the recovery of our love and care for one another.

A new experience the Lord gave me this time is peace. Generally, in troubled times like this in the past, with my cousin-sister and also with my mom, I used to be very anxious and nervous. But this time, the Lord has been gracing me to receive everything as from the Father's hand, and trust in Him absolutely. Perfect peace and joy have been filling me inwardly despite the severity of my dad's health, clubbed with the second wave of Corona rampantly spreading everywhere. I truly have no cause for worry or for fear, for my Father's wise bestowment upon all things has been made known to me.

Last week, the Lord's speaking was on wisdom, the way of doing things. The Lord is the Wisdom, and His ways are wise in every aspect. He is the only wise God (Rom. 16:27), Christ is the wisdom of God (1 Cor. 1:24), and Christ has become the wisdom from God to us (1 Cor. 1:30).  What the Lord spoke to me, His hand also followed suit in leading me to experience Him as my wisdom.

Wisdom may be understood as the way to do things. If we have wisdom, we will know the proper way to do things, but if we are not wise, our way of doing things will be foolish. In order to have the best way to do things in our daily life, we must have wisdom. Christ as wisdom to the believers is actually  the divine way. Hence, wisdom in 1 Corinthians 1:30 is equal to the way in John 14:6, a verse in which the Lord Jesus says, “I am the way.” God’s way is His wisdom. If we enjoy Christ and participate in Him, we will have Him as our wisdom, as our way. This wisdom comes from our enjoyment of Christ. Day by day and hour by hour we should live in the spirit and exercise the spirit to call on the name of the Lord Jesus. If we do this, we will enjoy Christ and have Him as our wisdom, that is, our way of doing things. ( The Conclusion of the New Testament, p. 3122)

The ministry portion that I enjoyed doctrinally has become my experience practically. The Lord is faithful to make His hand follow His speaking. All that has happened is truly out from Him, it will be through Him, and also unto Him. Even in my daddy's case, God is in control. He allows it all for our good. I would even say, this is how He answered all my prayers for my family. To revive all of us, to love God and love one another, to be one with God and to be one with one another. This experience is synonymous with Paul and Silas' experience in Acts 16: 24-34; praising God in the prison and God answering their prayers by an earthquake followed by the salvation of the Phillipian jailer with his whole family and so forth. Praise the Lord!

This is our testimony of our Father in heaven gaining us through our father on earth. Amen.

Life Lesson: Inward Struggle and Outward Supply

A week ago I was struggling within and also was reasoning intensely with the Lord concerning the house I live in right now. As a family, we have been living in the same house for a decade now. At times I wanted to shift out to another house seeking better facilities. With the same amount of rent I am paying now, I could have gotten a better house, infrastructurally speaking. Yet, I never got the go-ahead from the Lord for some reason known only to Him. This is the reason I struggled within with the Lord. On the one hand, I contemplated relocation. Yet, on the other hand, I never had the leading from the Lord nor the peace to move. And I dare not do anything without the Lord's perfect leading where His presence, His hands accompanies His speaking. Therefore, I got stuck.

With the pandemic striking last year, and now the second wave sweeping India all over again in an intense way, many houses have become vacant awaiting to be rented. Besides, house rents have been reduced significantly. These facts added more fuel to my reasoning mind. At the same time, my expenses for my children's fees and others have gone up significantly. Therefore, I was contemplating to negotiate with my house owner based on the facts I have got, to reduce the rent or shift out. This, perhaps, was a rather bold step yet foolish, becoming food for my reasoning mind and wandering thoughts. But as a man, I really struggled and struggled.

After I was bitten by a dog, for about two weeks I could not take a walk due to the wounds. But once I got well, I resumed my prayer walk again. On the first day of my prayer walk, the Lord spoke to me a very particular word that changed my whole concept and perhaps, renewed my mind all over again. Therefore I gave up all my strugglings, gave up all my reasonings, and gave up my being itself to God's caring hands; just to rest in Him in peace.

The Lord's speakings were, "You are my child, you cannot compare yourself with the worldly people. They may reason and fight for their so-called rights, but you must simply trust me, I will take care of it all. Others can negotiate on their rentals with pandemic as the reason, but I have been providing you with all that you needed. If your expenses were more, I will increase your supply accordingly. You don't have to fight for yourself, I will fight for you. Just trust in me, and just rest in Me. I know what is best for you."

After this, I completely gave up my thoughts and secret plans. Even my thought to write a "personal fellowship" mail to my house owner, who is also a brother in the Lord, seeking a reduction in my house rent. Then, the peace of God came back and I was released from all my "legal" reasonings. Praise the Lord!

Following this, the Lord also provided in abundance, to meet our expenses. Surprisingly, abundantly, and marvelously the Lord provided our needs through our loving and caring parent in Taiwan. With this love offering, the Lord proved Himself again that He is the Lord and He supplies abundantly on time. In other words, this was an experience of not fighting for my rights, even if there was any, but to defer all to the Lord for His sovereign arrangement. I must not fight for my rights nor accuse someone whom I feel is unrighteous. But leave the matter to the Lord who sees all, knows all, and is above all. Let Him take the final call.

Having enjoyed the Lord's speaking and the Lord's supply time and gain, I have no words but to worship Him and praise Him! For I know Him a little bit more and gain Him more! Praise the Lord!

Only If God Moves

As a serving one, I have a burden to take care of new ones and I have been doing my best to follow them up for shepherding. Yet for some reason, many of these new ones are not responding positively, giving me the only option available, ie.. to pray and pray and pray. This is indeed a trying time for me especially when I wanted to contact them and they did not respond at all. Most of these ones are from gentile backgrounds and they have not really been fully opened to give up their religious practices especially idol worship. In a way of shepherding, I did let them know that idols are nothing and that the true and living God must not be equated to a deaf, dumb, and dead idol. Perhaps, I have not been able to spend more time with them to shepherd them on a regular basis and help them step by step. But what I could do best, I believe, I have done it. Beyond my capacity, I cannot do anything further.

As I consider this matter carefully, a new light dawned on me. If God does not move, what can I really do? Try however much I may, all my human effort would be in vain if the Holy Spirit did not do His works on these new ones. If the Holy Spirit does not move in these ones, I dare not even try to do anything. I don't know why some of these new one's growth comes to a standstill. I may have my guesses, but it's all useless. The end of the matter is: Only if God moves, then I can only cooperate with God's move.

Now I pray and wait for the Holy Spirit's move in man that I need to cooperate with. This is a precious lesson I learned recently.  The same case applies to anyone. Though as a brother I may have a burden for people here and there, unless the Lord moves in them, I am helpless. Therefore, I have taken my hands off from trying to contact people who do not bother to respond at all. Be it believers or gospel friends, I would not sneak into their life unless I sense the work of the Holy Spirit in them. Lest I end up offering strange fire to God.

In response to the lesson I have learned, I have stopped sending messages to many new ones I used to send before. I also put a temporary hold on "trying to shepherd" those who are not interested at all. I also put a hold on inviting gospel friends for the gospel meetings if they do not show any interest at all. In fact, I also stooped responding to people who try to misuse me for their gain without any interest in the Lord Jesus Christ. I do this for now until the Lord would move me to continue following them up again, or until I sense the work of the Holy Spirit in them. So I resorted to prayer only for all these ones now.  I will continue to do so as long as the prayer burden for them is not lifted. I will move forward again if only God moves. 

What a precious lesson! It saves me a lot of my time and energy and even money. I used to be so busy running after so many new ones. Now that I should discern first if the Holy Spirit moves in them at all, then and only then, I would follow the move of the Holy Spirit in sweet coordination with the Lord. 

I will move only if God moves...

Life Lessons: Diligent, Detail, and Daring

One lesson that I will never forget in life is what a brother told me, "Never take a shortcut; the longest way is the shortest way." Whenever faced with a situation that demands my decision either to take the easier and shorter way or the difficult and longer yet the best way was, I decided to take the latter. Last week and this week, incidents happened in my life that made me exercise my character in this regard.

I needed to take an Anti-Rabbi Vaccination (ARV) on a frequency of 0-3-7-28 days from the day I got the first vaccination. My first vaccination was done at a government hospital in Delhi. For the second one, I had a choice. I could go to Delhi or find a government hospital in Gurugram. Or, the simplest and easiest way was to buy the vaccine and get vaccinated by any medical practitioner. 

I deemed it best to find a government hospital and started checking on it. Even after enquiring from the local saints, I was simply told not to bother to visit government hospitals as it was troublesome, and with Covid patients increasing, it was best to avoid public health care places. I was deeply not convinced by this logic. With pandemics, all public places including the shopping area adjacent to my house were as dangerous as any hospital. I determined to find a solution to get access to government health care by all means. In private, one has to shell out a good amount of money. I found no reason to not use what has been made available. I simply have to pay a little price to find out the proper ones.

With my right leg still aching from the dog bite wound, I went to enquire first where were the private clinics and how much they would cost for vaccination. Then I went to a nearby charity hospital to enquire the same. Then I googled to look for a nearby government hospital. I followed Google map direction and found Wazirabd Government Hospital. Upon enquiring, I was told that ARV was dispensed in another government-run Poly Clinic at Sector 31. I googled and followed Google Maps to find the hospital. 

Then, upon enquiring I was told to get registered first before I could get vaccinated. Meanwhile, I had been driving and moving around with my wounded leg. Due to the fear of Covid, many had come to get a check or get vaccinated for Covid-19. All patients had to stand in the queue for the registration. I had no choice but to stand in the queue with my right leg barely able to hold me. A thought came to me just to give it up and take the easier way but avoiding all these formalities and get vaccinated at my own time and comfort. But I decided to stay in the queue and wait for my turn. For the entire one-hour period of waiting, I listened to two life-study radio programs on Philippians. Finally, my turn came. I got registered and then got vaccinated. 

Now that I found out the proper place for vaccination and all the other detail, I would come again for all the other courses of vaccination. Besides, I can also let other needy saints know about this facility and where it was located. In fact, I informed a brother about this as well. 

The idea here was not merely to save the cost of vaccination, but also to find out the government facilities available, and other details if the need arises in the future. Now for Covid and all other medical needs, I came to know what was available. After 15 years of my stay in Gurugram, this was the first time I availed myself affordable government facilities. Otherwise, private facilities are super expensive and run purely for business. I am glad I could discover this, besides exercising my character to be diligent in finding the detail of dispensaries and be daring to do so at such a time like this when the second wave of Corona is on the rise.

Yesterday and today, I was researching the way to create professional HD promotional material according to my idea for the Holy Bible Recovery Version promotion. A brother had once done something but I needed something better. I had the idea but now I must find a way to implement it. After some hours of research online, I discovered the best and simplest way of doing it exactly according to my ideas. This too required diligent researching, learning, and trying and trying. Finally, I created a very professional presentation on PPT and added all the animations, transitions, music, and designs, and converted it into an MP4 file.  As I replayed the media and observed carefully, more new ideas came for improvement. Therefore, I had to redo it again and again, a couple of times, until it fully satisfied me. Herein was also the exercise of character involved. Actually, there were promotional materials already available, but those did not satisfy me. I wanted something better.  The shortcut way was to simply use what was available. But if I had to add or change something I need to contact the designer and the process would be much longer.

The lesson learned here is; be diligent, be detailed in anything I do, and for it I must be daring, taking risks, and pay the price as well.

Happy Family Time

Since I got bitten by a dog, I needed the special attention of my family as I could not manage things by myself. My son and daughter helped me much in supporting my walk as I could not put pressure on my right leg due to the injury from dog bites. I enjoyed and treasured the assistance of my children. In fact, I never realized that they could be a great help and blessing to me in time of need. My wife too took special care of me in attending to my wounds, cleaning them up and applying ointment for the wound, and timely feeding me food, and dispensing the prescribed medicines. On top of all, I could not sleep alone and it was not safe for me too. Therefore I had to sleep with my whole family in the same room. The family bonding has grown much stronger and sweeter the past few days. Thanks for the dog bites.

As I considered the dog bite episode, I truly believe it was the sovereign arrangement of the Lord to strengthen our intimate family love. Time and again, I have been enjoying the love God has ordained for my family. Though I could not go out for a prayer walk, which I desire to resume once my wounds are healed. Until then, I still pray at home and spend more time with my family.

These days, perhaps due to the effect of the medicine that I consumed, I have a drowsy feeling after every pill. This made me sleep much longer than usual. After over a decade I am taking medicine again, therefore my body could not easily handle the strong effect of the antibiotics I was prescribed by the doctor. This makes me sleep more. And I slept mostly with my son and daughter. They both showered their tender love for me and I enjoyed the bonding between us. 

In businesses and mostly in restaurants, they have something called, "Happy Hours." When customers are least expected, in order to keep the business afloat they promote this scanty time as happy hours. In the same principle, what I have been going through now is "happy family hours" when normally I would be busy with my own works and responsibilities, now due to the special situation, it has turned out be the happy hours with my family. I thank the Lord for these happy hours of the day. And I believe, family life should always be happy hours,  a happy family time. This is what the Lord has ordained for a family!

May the Lord grace me and my family, all the days of life, to enjoy the happy family time; every time we are together, it should be happy hours.

Knowing God and Knowing Life

And we know that the Son of God has come and has given us an understanding that we might know Him who is true; and we are in Him who is true, in His Son Jesus Christ. This is the true God and eternal life. 1 John 5:20

And this is eternal life, that they may know You, the only true God, and Him whom You have sent, Jesus Christ. John 17:3

Knowing God and knowing eternal life are two sides of the same coin. The knowledge of God that was given to us through the incarnation of the Lord Jesus Christ is the knowledge of the eternal life. With our mind being enlightened, we know God, and this knowing God leads us into the receiving of the eternal life of God. Therefore, the knowledge of God is eternal life. The former tends towards the objective knowledge and the latter tends toward the subjective experience. yet the two are one. Any genuine knowledge of God will usher one into the experience of the eternal life, and vice versa. Eternal life is the divine life with a special function to know God and Christ. To know God, one needs the divine life. The believers are born of the divine life, therefore, they know God and Christ.

In these two verses, we confirm the oneness of the ministry of brother Watchman Nee and Witness Lee.  Brother Nee's ministry leads us into the deep and objective knowledge of God and brother Lee's ministry leads us into the sweet and subjective experience of God based on the revelation revealed through brother Nee. The servants of the Lord are doing the one ministry of the new testament. They complement each other. 

Despite some opposers trying to divide the ministry of brother Nee and Lee, those who truly know and experience the two brother's ministry can testify that the two ministries are unto the one ministry. Whatever brother Nee had received from the Lord and were spoken forth are all made practical and enjoyable through brother Lee's ministry. In fact, without the help of brother Lee's ministry, it is rather difficult to experience the ministry of brother Nee. These two verses put the ministry of the two brothers together. One of knowledge that leads to life, and the other of life that leads to more knowledge. Like a vicious cycle, the more the knowledge of God, the more the eternal life; the more the eternal life, the more the knowledge of God.  Therefore, the two brothers are just one, and the duo's ministry are the same; they both usher the believers into the knowledge and experience of God unto the building up of the Body of Christ.

Watchman Nee's Chinese name To-sheng, meaning "the sound of a watchman's rattle." True to his name, he indeed was a watchman to the believers, reminding the hour of the time. His ministry was a reminder to the believers for watchfulness awaiting the Lord's return.  His ministry sounded out emphatically, point by point, what were the points one needs to be reminded of as we await the Lord's return. Now that he has gone to be with the Lord, still his watchman's sound, the ministry God had apportioned to him, still rings on. Therefore, a proverb is apt to describe him and his ministry of the word, "Although the watchman is gone, the sound of the watchman still remains, and echoes through the believers' ears until the morning dawn."

Brother Watchman Nee unveiled the three points of the blueprint for the Lord's building work:

1. Christ is the only material for the building of God's house.
2. The building is expressed locally where the believers are. 
3. The building is carried out through coordination.

In all these three points, brother Witness Lee's ministry fits in. Br. Lee had extensively expounded on Christ as the unique building material. One of his classic books is "The All-Inclusive Christ" in 1962. On the matter of the building being expressed as a local church in a locality, he, in 1968 has spoken a series of messages on "The Practical Expression of the Church." And on the matter of coordination, he has released a number of books on coordination in the Body for the building up of the Body of Christ. Therefore, brother Watchman Nee and Witness Lee's ministry are just one ministry.

As much in the vision, so much in the ministry, the two brothers' ministries are one and they complement each other. In as much as knowing God is the eternal life, what brother Nee had revealed of God is now being made experienceable through brother Lee's ministry. Praise the Lord for the two brothers and the apportion the Lord had sovereignly allotted to them! Today, we are the beneficiaries. In fact, I am one of the beneficiaries. Not to boast, but in reality, declaring the fact, I have been so much helped and blessed by these two brothers' portion. 

Glory to God! Amen!

Life Lesson: Responding to Attack

And I also say to you that you are Peter, and upon this rock I will build My church, and the gates of Hades shall not prevail against it. Matthew 16:18

The church belongs to the Lord; Christ is the Head of the church. Whenever and wherever the building up of the Church, the Body of Christ, is taking place, the enemy tries his best to attack and perhaps, destroy it. But the fact is, the Lord's words stand tall and strong. This is an eternal and universal promised, "the gates of Hades shall not prevail against it." Try however much he may, he cannot destroy the Lord's work. Come what may, the saints will stand strong in the Lord. The present seeming defeat is a step to the coming victory!

In the recent attack on the Lord's work in India for which we also had a special fellowship on the 4th of April, I have a deep impression within that the enemy is utterly defeated in spite of the seeming havoc he managed to create in the Lord's move in India, especially in the church in Chennai. All the internal attacks of the enemy through some brothers who are ambitious, with an unrenewed mind, in their spiritual blindness, managed to create a storm in a teacup. But this incident, though negative it may sound, is positively approving the work of the Holy Spirit in that particular local church. It only vindicates the genuineness of His work in and among the saints. Through such a storm in a teacup, the true color of the brothers was exposed. In a sense, this is a good lesson for all the serving ones in the Lord's work to learn. Not that we approve of the negative situation happening, but that, from such, we learn what the Lord wants us to learn in a very positive way.

I personally pray and cover the brothers who are severely being attacked. I pray that the Lord would grace the brother, cover him, fully strengthen him, and also recover back his function in time. I also pray for the brothers who are the "attackers. May their eyes be open to see what foolishness they have committed in their natural zeal, immaturity, and spiritual blindness. May the Lord cover and recover both the culprits and the victim. 

Amidst such attacks, there are some lessons that need to be learned.

Never rejoice at the fall of a brother. Those who do so are evil-hearted brothers. A delight in other's fall, even the slightest delight, is surely a manifestation of an evil heart.

Never spread a rumor about a brother's fall. Blessed are those who cover the nakedness of their brother. Whoever spreads negativity will be invaded by negativity. Learn to cover the brothers, and you will be blessed.

Grief for the church and the brother where such an attack took place. Pray for their restoration. In restoring the brother there will be the blessing.

For there must even be parties among you, that those who are approved may become manifest among you. 1 Corinthians 11:9

The Lord is sovereignly teaching us a life lesson on how to respond to Satan's attack whenever or wherever it may occur. We are not ignorant of his schemes.

That we may not be taken advantage of by Satan, for we are not ignorant of his schemes. 2 Corinthians 2 :11