Family Propagation

Last weekend, we went to visit a brother and his family who visited India from Taiwan for the gospel propagation in Delhi. Our plan was to have a dinner fellowship and love feast together. But as we fellowshipped with him it went on and on at the house rented for the gospel work, more gospel friends were brought in for home meeting as a result of which some took baptism, and we ended up joining with the saints in the gospel propagation work as a family. Our plan was to eat out, but we were caught up eating the word together in small group meetings with new believers. Meanwhile our children enjoyed playing with other children, and we all enjoyed as a family, our participation in the Lord's move.

I was particularly caught up with one new brother as we fellowshipped on Romans 8 : 28, 29, the Lord's speaking was so timely for the new brother. He asked the meaning of the "first born Son of God" and how one can be conformed to the image of the firstborn Son of God? With that our fellowship took turn to expound the truth concerning the firstborn Son of God and the need for a normal daily Christian living of all things working together for good to gain God. Further, we explained the practical need for a companion and living the church life and kind-of introduced him to the church in Delhi. 

Once we were done with this new one, two gospel friends came in to our group meeting. Our fellowship then took a new turn again; preaching the gospel to the gospel friends in Hindi. Four of us coordinated to share the gospel by turn, leading them to pray and receive the Lord, and finally the two got baptised. Which then was followed by dinner fellowship and appointed made for further follow-up shepherding. May the Lord shepherd these new ones through the laboring saints.

All this while, the children were engaged in their own home meeting, playing and enjoying.

By the way, this day happened to be the last day of the propagation that has been going on since the past five weeks. A propagation in coordination with saints from Hsinchu, Taiwan and saints in India. The Lord indeed blessed His move and over a 100 new ones were brought to salvation. The next urgent step is cherishing and nourishing them to live a normal Christian life in the normal church-life. 

Though not planned, God had planned it for us to participate in His move in Dwarka Mor, New Delhi, and this turned out to be our family propagation. The verse that I expounded to the new one actually and practically was applied to our experience that day. 

Rom. 8:28 - And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are called according to His purpose.

Rom. 8:29 - Because those whom He foreknew, He also predestinated to be conformed to the  b image of His Son, that He might be the Firstborn among many brothers;

Burning Burden

As I flew back from Chennai after a coworkers training, a deep burden consumed me as though fire was burning intensely in my heart. The feeling was so strong and the burden so heavy that I could only groan for the brothers whom the Lord burdened me to pray for. The anxious concern for them bled my heart and I felt as though a knife was pierced deep into my heart; and was bleeding, and as if dripping down drops of blood. Yet I thanked the Lord for this blessed burden. I reckon it as a blessing from the Lord, to learn to pray and intercede for my fellow brethren. 

There are seven brothers in this burden. And all them are extreme cases to my discernment of their condition; the feeling the Lord gave me, as I interceded for them, was the yardstick. 

The first one is a dear brother with whom I used to have sweet fellowship and prayer from my college days. He is a wonderful and spiritual brother. He has a feeling of not being free to even meet me as he thinks I have endorsed a particular gifted member legitimately or "cultistically." Though I, with all sincerity and purity of heart, extend my brotherly fellowship to him, he wrote me back on his reservation of meeting me. Though I was not offended at all,  but I had a deep feeling to just pray and pray that the Lord would remove any hindrance that prevents our brotherly fellowship. Deep within, I dearly love him and pray that the Lord would bless him, no matter what. I  would rejoice in his prosperity and one day, perhaps, we will restore our brotherly fellowship. My blessing to him and his wife. 

The second one is an elderly brother and sister who loves me so much, and always treat me as their own son. Though I enjoyed their love and care, my burden for them is that they would be fully blended into the Body life. He had warmly agreed to be introduced to the brothers in the church for further fellowship. May the Lord bless them and grace them to see the Body, know the Body and live in the Body. 

The third one is a spiritual son of mine from my training days some fourteen years ago. This time round I could not meet him due to his busy schedule. But at least I had the consolation that he had apologized for not being able to meet me. My prayer for him is for his family and his marriage that he would find a match and be a living testimony for the Lord in the church life in Chennai. 

The fourth one is a dear brother who has been going through extreme difficulties in his marriage life and job life. Now and then I used to pray with him and fellowship with him. I could feel the same pain and pressure he has been going through. Our prayer has always been for the Lord to gain us through the circumstances and that the Lord would turn the work of the enemy into His multifarious wisdom and put the enemy to an open shame. And that his family and in-laws and all their relatives be recovered for the church life, and pray further that his family become pillar for the Lord's testimony in his locality. 

The fifth one is a dear brother and also my former teacher who was instrumental in ushering me to the church life. My love for him as a teacher and brother has never died down. Every time I visited Chennai I would try to pay a visit to his family. And almost all the time I did so, he would invite me for love feast along with the fellowship on our subjective experiences of Christ. May the Lord bless him and his family. 

The sixth and seventh ones are the brothers who lives with me and are on the process of recovering from their own problems. These are not spiritual in nature at all, in fact very worldly and are almost beyond human control. But still they are my brothers and I love them. Despite their condition whatsoever, I pray with my family daily for their complete recovery, psychologically, physically and spiritually. Trusting in the Lord and believing in our own prayer, I look forward to the day they would be pillars for the church in Gurgaon. 

These seven wonderful burdens have consumed my time on my flight journey from Chennai to Delhi last night. Having released all these burdens before the Lord in prayer, I was unloaded in peace as the flight landed. 

Thank God for these brothers. Though they may not be aware of my prayer and burden concerning them, at least it gave me a solid time of prayer and fellowship with the Lord. If not for these burdens, my two hours flight would have been very boring, and that time would just have been wasted. Praise the Lord for the prayer burden that burned me and burdened my time to fruition!  

Burning burdens are blessed burdens!

Family Appreciation

The sure mercies of the Lord and His amazing grace has been an inexplicable blessing to our family. Since the time Jane and I got married, in the will of the Lord with the witness and blessing of the Body, we have been graciously blessed both spiritually and physically in many aspects of our family lives. Many times I have no words to express my thankfulness to the Lord for all that He has been doing. Sometimes I thought I have been dreaming, but it is indeed real. Praise the Lord! 

The Lord's blessing of three children thus far have, time and again, proves His faithfulness in taking care of us. And now these children are growing up and I have been witnessing the Lord's blessing hand upon each one of them. Our family prayer daily is also for the Lord's covering and blessing as we live out our family life day by day. 

Recently, my son has been showing signs of outstanding academic performance. The Lord has blessed him to be the most excelling one among his classmates, and his teachers have reported about their appreciations. One particular school event on general knowledge has earned him a gold medal at school level, and he had just attempted the inter-school one too, and reported to me that he has done it quite well. My promise was, if he would score a centum or an outstanding score, I would gift him a coat-suit. He was so excited about it. And he prayed in his prayer that God would bless him to score centum. 

My two daughters are growing up well too. The first one has picked up an excellent skill of reading; quite remarkable for her age. And the younger one started praying daily at age three in the family prayer. Both are manifesting signs of intelligence. Only God knows what the future holds. As their father, I commit them all to the grace of God. 

My wife, with all the pressures of the family, especially the kids and other family matters, has been graced by the Lord to handle matters wisely; she mostly fellowshipped with me for all important matters. We have been coordinating in all possible ways we can, and I have been discovering her worth and preciousness more and more, day by day. Now and then I have expressed such appreciation to her, verbally. She indeed is so sweet, simple and smart. 

Whenever I get the opportunity, I did my best to show my appreciation to all my family members. Recently, I took them out for buying special cake which my wife loves, for ice cream which my children loves, for shopping to buy essential items for all of them, for eating out at the restaurant of their choice, and also buying gifts of their choice. With whatever the Lord blessed, I spent graciously to buy them all the essential needs. And in doing so they were happy, and their happiness is my happiness too. Most of the items purchased were neither luxurious nor wants, but genuine human needs. My wife's choice was an Oven for baking cake, as she loves baking, not a bouquet of flowers or fashionable dresses, just simple household items. That make me appreciate her all the more. Especially, these days, according to the present worldly trend, when ladies are after vain and luxurious items, my wife's choice draws my sincere appreciation. This too is a blessing from God. 

My heart has been filled with joy and gladness mingled with thanksgiving to God. This surely is a blessing from God, and all glory to Him. All these may be simple, down to earth affair, but behind all, there is the hand of God. His operating in humanity, caring for our human feelings and needs, have all lead me to thank God, the One behind all matters and things. In all God's blessings, my family appreciation testifies and reflects in reciprocation.

Lord, grace us unto the end.

Inward Recovery

Exo. 2:11 -  And in those days, when Moses had grown up, he went out to his brothers and looked on their burdens; and he saw an Egyptian beating a Hebrew, one of his brothers.Exo. 2:12 - And he looked this way and that, and when he saw that there was no one there, he struck the Egyptian down and hid him in the sand.Exo. 2:13 - And he went out the next day, and there were two Hebrew men struggling together; and he said to the one who was in the wrong, Why are you beating your companion?Exo. 2:14 - And he said, Who appointed you a ruler and a judge over us? Are you thinking to kill me as you killed the Egyptian? And Moses became frightened and said, Surely the matter is known.Exo. 2:15 - Now when Pharaoh heard of this matter, he sought to kill Moses. But Moses fled from Pharaoh to dwell in the land of Midian, and he sat down by a well. 

Moses grew up, trained as the son of Pharoah's daughter in all the knowledge and skill of an Egyptian. He thought that he could deliver his people by his natural strength and training he had thus far received from Egypt. But his very natural ability led him to flee Egypt. He could not deliver a soul with what he was and had obtained or achieved. This may just be just a Bible history or story to many, but to me, it is my story. 

With all the knowledge and skill I have learned so far, I have many dos and don'ts concerning a human life. I even treasure some of my knowledge as really good, but the Lord had to expose me to know that all my knowledge are as good as bad, if not worst. This is what I just learned.

Last few weeks I gave a lot of counselling to my Onesimus' according to what I deemed good and proper. But it just proved to me that without the Lord's work in me and in the ones I care for, all human moral and ethical teaching is a vanity fair. I had a good heart and intent to correct my dear brothers, but without the Lord's supply of life, it's as good as speaking to a dumb donkey. The more you speak and teach, the more the donkey boos at you. I initiated something with good intent but ended up in contempt. I just learned my lesson.

After these few experiences, I went before the Lord and prayed for myself and the brothers I care for. I gave up trying to correct anybody; now I know fully well, its a vain and hopeless attempt to do so. I decided to stop all outward corrections henceforth, but spend time with my brothers in prayer, morning revival, and reading the Bible with them. Only the Lord's inward recovery by life is the answer. Though I knew this before, but now I know it better, even subjectively.

The fallen human nature is sinful and beyond improvement. Outward teachings and corrections cannot change a bit of the inward nature and life of the people concerned. Even outward spiritual help of repenting and turning to the Lord did not really work. Rather, through all these repenting and turning to the Lord, there must be substantial dispensing of the divine life that changes people's nature and inward being. No human effort can do this, only the Lord's divine life can. So more dispensing of the the divine life is the need of the hour.

Since I learned this lesson subjectively, I now look to the Lord for His life dispensing to me and to all who I care for.

Recently, my pursuing of Life-study of Ezekiel, chapter 17, helped me in this matter.

The genuine recovery of the Lord is not simply a matter of repenting, turning to the Lord, and enjoying the blessing of the Lord. There also needs to be a change in our life and nature. In His recovery, God needs to touch our heart and our spirit and thereby touch our life directly and change us in life and nature. Therefore, we need both the outward recovery described in Ezekiel 34 and the inward recovery described in Ezekiel 36. Because the recovery in Ezekiel 36 concerns our life and our nature and involves our heart and our spirit, chapter thirty-five is inserted to show the importance of judging our old man. In order to recover us and make us a new man, God must judge our old man, our old creation.

Lord, recover us by Your life inwardly; may there be inward change in our life and nature. 

Body-Faith

Body-faith, I wonder if such word was ever used. If not, may I be the first to coin and use this word. By this I mean, a faith corporately exercised by the saints in coordination and in one accord in the Body concerning the Lord's supply, either spiritually or physically, to meet the need of the Body, by the Body, and for the Body. 

By the Lord's mercy, I have enjoyed the blessings of God's bountiful provision for my personal needs and others as well, time and again, in many circumstances. Yes, that is a normal Christian experience, though individually. But now the Lord is leading me further to exercise the same faith in the Body, as the Body, with the Body and for the Body. 

The Lord has granted me the opportunity to learn this lesson of Body-faith these days. As we have decided, in the Lord's leading and in fellowship with the Body, to translate the Recovery Version New Testament into several Indian languages to begin with, perhaps three or even six. And the burden is not just to expect the financial supply to meet the need from overseas saints or churches, but to generate it locally within India itself. Not that we would not receive offering from abroad, but the principle is, to help the saints in India to experience the Lord’s supply of grace and break through in financial matters. Though the churches in India may be new, young, and few, but this should not be an excuse in anyway. All the saints should bear the same burden and offer for this project until we can testify of the Lord's blessing in abundance and even ask the saints to stop the offering because the offering is much more than actually needed. 

As I, and a group of brothers, have the responsibility to oversee the practical carrying out of this project, and practically handling the finance, I begin to witness the Lord's supply. At one point, considering the great amount of money needed for this project, I exercised my spirit to pray and also exercised my faith for the need to be met, the Lord's instant speaking to me personally was, "let it be the Body-faith." Since then, I was deeply comforted that I am not bearing this burden alone, but the whole Body bearing the same burden, and the whole Body exercising the same faith. This is the experience of the Body-faith. 

Step by step, I have been graced to witness the Lord’s timely supply for every stage. The first stage was the preparation of the infrastructure for the project, an amount of Rs. 6,16,580. It was amazing, just when it was time to purchase the said infrastructure, offerings to the tune of Rs. 6,50,000+ came. After this, the next need is for the monthly support of the serving ones for this project, a sum of Rs. 2,64,000. And as of now, Rs. 3,00,000+ offerings from different saints and churches have been received. This is a practical subjective experience of the Body faith. 

This, indeed, is a new lesson to me; exercising and experiencing the Body-faith. Not just faith experienced individually but corporately as the Body, by the Body, with the Body and for the Body, the Body faith. 

Lord, grace me to experience such Body-faith hence forth. 

Ground Zero

Everything surrounding me and the feeling I have deep within, when evaluating in the light I have received from the Lord, seems to tell me that all things are on ground zero. My evaluation yields more of negative result than positive; a self assessment of my life and services, but this is not a religious introspection. I personally feel my judgement may be accurate as I know myself in the light the Lord has been shining on me these days and also confirmed in fellowship with some matured brothers. Be it my service in the literature, or in the church, I have been having this sense of really being on ground zero. I have nothing to boast of any achievement or success,  even if there be any, as my being is desperately open to the Lord for His dealings, yet all in His loving mercy and grace. 

The two brothers, my Onesimus' that I and my wife have been shepherding in a way of giving them hospitality have not been doing well these days. They seems to create more troubles for themselves, among themselves, and even to an extent, for our family. At times there are concerns of their welfare, both spiritual and physical, and other times, a deep concern for our family and our growing children. Yet everytime I brought the matter to the Lord, the Lord’s speaking is, just to be quite and let them stay with us. My impatience for waiting too long for a quick result ran out few days ago. I personally confronted one of them verbally, rebuking severely and even threatening to let them leave the house and be by themselves, but the Lord would not honor my self reaction as He definitely has a better plan. Thank God, I restraint myself and stopped pursuing the matter. 

Following the incident, I was deeply humbled because of my helplessness and I seriously intensified my intercessory prayer for them. From then on, I fully submit my self, my family and the brothers to the Lord's loving hand. And I fellowshipped the same burden with my wife. I even told her, the Lord as the good Shepherd will shepherd us and them, and later, this will become our testimony of practical shepherding. If we could both pass this test of shepherding troublesome brothers, we would be able to shepherd any saints in the future. We both agreed in one accord to learn this lesson of shepherding from ground zero. 

Similarly, the Lord also enlightened me to see my helpless situation in the church as well concerning the saints. Though we all are saints indeed, the vitality and practise of the God-ordained way as we normally should carry out hasn't been realized yet. Each saint has their own situation only which the Lord can interfere and deliver them from. Often my prayer has just been, "O Lord,  have mercy!" What else can I pray? The Lord's mercy is what we need. 

Looking at my service too,  though all is well to others. But to my deeper assessment I could see a lot of room for improvement. Ranging from spiritual to physical, many areas need to be improved. Our standard of service must go up, our quality of production must be uplifted, and our infrastructure and personnel skill needs to be upgraded. 

With all these analysis in view, I deeply feel, I am still on ground zero. Had it been the world that I am serving, management skill would be a great help. Not that I am ignorant of management, I just cannot exercise my human skill without the Lord’s anointing and blessing. So, with much hope I resign from what I can perhaps do, and simply recline at the Lord's feet for His working in me and through me for His divine purpose. 

Yes, I now stand and henceforth, begin my journey afresh from ground zero. Trusting the Lord shepherding care, practical guidance and His blessing, I look forward to and expect the Lord's blessing from ground zero. Amen

Light of the Gentiles

Acts 13:47 - For so the Lord has commanded us, “I have set you as a light of the Gentiles, that you would be for salvation unto the uttermost part of the earth.

Note from the Holy Bible Recovery Version This word is a quotation from Isa. 49:6, which refers to Christ as God’s Servant, whom God made a light to the Gentiles that His salvation might reach to the end of the earth. Because he was one with Christ in carrying out God’s salvation in Christ, the apostle Paul applied this prophetic word to himself in his ministry of gospel preaching for the turning of the gospel from the Jews, because of their rejection, to the Gentiles. In His ministry on earth the Lord expressed the same thing to the stubborn Jews in Luke 4:24-27.

Light of the Gentiles, is a strong phrase that struck me deeply. Have I been so all these years of my Christian life and service? Not merely preaching the gospel in season and out of season, not merely shepherding the believers now and then, not merely praying for sinners' salvation, not merely living a normal Christian life in a normal church life, or not even merely being a light to the Gentiles, have I really been a light of the Gentiles? I hope that this is not an enigma to me. I must be able to say with full assurance that I am indeed a light of the Gentiles. This must be my testimony as the Lord commanded so. If such be the case, there need not be any struggling in bring men to Christ. When we are the light itself, by definition, light shines! When light shines it dispels all darkness and needs no reasoning. It simply shines and dispels all darkness. For this is the nature and effect of light. So much the more, the heaven, divine and spiritual light of God. 

People can argue with claims of truth, but never with light. By being one with Christ as the great Light, we are the light of the Gentiles. Through growth in life and the dispensing of the divine light into us, gradually, our person and work are becoming one. As we become one with Christ, then we become light itself. Paul's ministry was the ministry of light. So must our ministry be. He was one with Christ to such an extend that he became one with the Light, in fact, light itself.

When the Lord was on the earth He was the Light. 

John 8:12 - Again therefore Jesus spoke to them, saying, I am the light of the world; he who follows Me shall by no means walk in darkness, but shall have the light of life. 

The Lord in Himself is the light of the world. The Lord in us makes us the light of the world. As believers who are growing and becoming one with Him, the Light, we are the light of the world. In fact,  we become light itself. 

Matt. 5:14 - You are the light of the world. It is impossible for a city situated upon a mountain to be hidden.

Eph. 5:8-10 - For you were once darkness but are now light in the Lord; walk as children of light (For the fruit of the light consists in all goodness and righteousness and truth), proving what is well pleasing to the Lord.

As we do pray for the light to shine on the Gentiles, much more we must pray that we become the light of God to shine on the Gentiles; God’s light shining in us and through us. This has been my burden and prayer as I pray and care for many new believers and are endeavoring to preach the gospel to the Gentiles.

Lord, may such be our testimony as Christians!