A Choice

Daily, hourly, one is faced with a choice, be it meager or mega, silly or serious, significant or simple, a choice has to be made now and then. God had sovereignly given full freedom of choice to mankind and would not interfere with it a bit, in His greatness. Though He desires man to choose of the tree of life, He would nevertheless, in no way force Himself into man's choice. He waits and waits until man would choose Him only.

My recent experience on trying to venture into research activity was also a matter of choice. If I had to fulfill my academic zeal, I had to invest enough time and energy to achieve what I professionally intend to and dream about. Which would mean a sacrifice of other things that I am already occupied with now. For I am just one man with only one life and I have only 24 hours a day. I cannot double myself, nor multiply my time, I am just an ordinary human, finite and limited. I cannot stand on two opposite weigh scale at the same time and balance it all the way from start to end. I only can make a choice, this or that. Yes, a choice...

When faced with such choice, my innate response was, "Lord, I only choose You and ever will." I cannot even imagine wasting my time in non-eternal things and when there are many eternal pursuits awaiting, being placed in front of me. One of the conditions for a research program was a rigorous course work even to the tune of eighteen months. To this, my simply reaction was, would I invest this many time when I can as well invest the same amount of time and pursue spiritual treasure and earn an equivalent spiritual invisible degree of the same rank, if not more? In fact, this made me reconsecrate my time to finish reading a collection of the spiritual works of brother Watchman Nee and the high peak truths released by brother Witness Lee. If time were to be invested for secular achievement, why not more for spiritual nourishment? The experience was a platform for me to make a choice. And eighteen months later, I would gladly comment, " a choice well made."

So I decided to choose the latter, and would dive into the ministry of the word. Many such cases would occur, I only have to look to the Lord and discern wisely and divinely.

Lord, preserve me to always choose the tree of life and walk in the way of life.