About My Beloved Wife

I just arrived at the meeting hall of the church in Taguig in Metro Manila for the international training of the brothers. It was the 4th of October, my first night in Philippines, as I could not sleep I decided to read my Bible from about 11 pm through the midnight onto the next morning. And as I slept by about 1 am or so, a surprise thought engulfed my mind. Whether I was attacked by the enemy or was it the Lord trying to tell me something, I did not know for sure. I was deeply saddened by the voice I heard and the vision I saw. I literally could not agree with it, much less accept it. I struggled to fight against whosoever initiated this matter. In fact, I rejected it outrightly. But if it were from the Lord, I begged the Lord to give me the grace to accept it. Ultimately, I had only one answer, should it be from the Lord. The answer would always be "amen" as long as it is from the Lord. I only need His grace.

The vision of the night was that my beloved wife will be taken by the Lord. At the very thought of this, my tears started rolling down and I wept alone in the middle of the night. I had not wept for years altogether. I was heart broken and begged the Lord to take this cup away from me. I began to reason with the Lord, why should He take what He gave? 

It took us many years to build up this marriage relationship and now we have been blended as one. I could open up to my wife almost any matter and we understood each other, our strength as well as our weaknesses. She is my backbone and without her my life is finished. The reason I could serve the Lord the way I do is because the Lord blessed me with a beloved wife who is my better half. She takes care of the family matters while I travel to different parts of the country and abroad for the Lord’s work. She has the maturity to take care of all family matters in my absence. She also has the heart for the Lord and fully supports me in my serving the Lord. In fact, she is the reason behind my being able to serve the Lord. The Lord blessed me with her to be my coworker and vital partner. Even I became one flesh with her that I could not function if not for her function in the family. Therefore, I need her very much for my Christian life, church life, and service life. At this moment, I pray that the Lord would preserve her and that if the vision be of the Lord, I reason with the Lord for a reconsideration. Nonetheless, let the will of the Lord be done.

That said, may the will of the Lord be done. He knows best. I am only commenting on the dream or the vision I saw.

Perhaps, the Lord is just testing me and preparing my being to love and spend more time with my wife. Either way, the Lord's will be accomplished in me and us together foe His purpose. This is the only reason we live on this earth, for God’s economy. 

Lord, preserve us for Your divine and eternal purpose.