Intimate Fellowship

The Lord has been burdening me to spend more intimate time of fellowship with Him. He has been speaking to me personally and through the Body about the need for intimate fellowship with Him. This burden has been so strong within me that I decided before the Lord, trusting in His grace that I could enjoy at least an hour of intimate fellowship in prayer every day. I look to Him for more grace so that this can be enjoyed all the days of my life.

In my time spent with Him, the Lord began to speak to me in a very personal way concerning so many things in my life. One evening, as I enjoying my time with the Lord, my intention was not to go back home from the park where I had been walking to and fro in prayer, but I needed to go back. In fact, I started my prayer time at 7:00 PM, and at about 7:30 PM I had to go back home as I had nature's call to pee, which generally did not happen. But I felt the need to go back and pee. Then after that, I wanted to continue my prayer but I did not have the leading to go back to the same park where I just prayed for half an hour. I was rather led to go to another nearby park. Then I went. 

There in the park, the Lord showed me what I had never expected but had a suspicion about. I got the shock of my life and could not literally believe my eye. But since I did not have the perfect proof of what I saw and could not confirm it for sure, I took the matter to the Lord and prayed. Later, my suspicion was even clearer as I had the unconfirmed sight of some misbehavior. I kept the sight I saw to myself and could not properly sleep at night. But I used that sleeplessness to pray for a while and read a ministry book and complete the whole book by the next morning.

The next day, I had a strong feeling from the Lord that I should fellowship with a sister which I did and confirmed many points of suspicion. This gave me the proper ground to fellowship at length in depth in an intimate way. It was like a father fellowshipping with his daughter with loving intimate concern. I believed this fellowship was straight from the heart and the spirit and that I openly poured out my whole being with all sincerity and truthfulness, with all faithfulness and fear of God. 

A few days later, I had another time of an intimate fellowship with the sister concerned and poured out all my heart concerning how she needed to be preserved for the Lord's testimony. The fellowship went on and on for over two hours until midnight when I began to touch upon and open up many family-related matters. In fact, this was the best opportunity I had to fellowship with the sister and let her know that she is just like my first daughter and that whatever she does affects me. For good or for bad, I am directly responsible for whatever would become of her. This was the first time I ever fellowshipped on family matters so intimately.  For seven years she has been with our family and we never had such a time together. I believe the Lord arranged this time together to strengthen the family bond and the family relationship.

All things indeed work together for good. If this was not the case I would have never poured out my heart's feelings or fellowship so intimately on family matters. It's time that I open up and strengthen the family tie.

Now I realize the need for intimate fellowship with the Lord and also for intimate fellowship with family members. I believe the same holds true for the new ones that the Lord gave me for shepherding. Intimate fellowship is a way of shepherding too.