Learn to be Abased

I know also how to be abased, and I know how to abound; in everything and in all things I have learned the secret both to be filled and to hunger, both to abound and to lack. Phil. 4:12  

The first quarter of this year has been a peaceful experience of being abased. I have been learning this lesson the apostle Paul had already learned, "I know how to be abased.." 

I have been tasting the contrast feeling of being abound, and now its time to learn the other lesson as well. The Lord sovereingly arranges things in such a way that I need to spend a lot on something inevitable, mostly related to my family life. Learning to be a proper father in taking care of my family I have been spending my time, energy and all that I could to enjoy my family life. 

Firstly, I take care of all the essentials of the family, not to allow any lack in the matter of family needs. I spend and am spending generously for the family, to cherish and keep the family happy. Now I focus more on the happiness of my family more the the saving of money in my bank account. What is money good for if it is not for the building up of the family life and spending it for the Lord's purpose? Money comes and money goes, never love it nor be a slave to it. Spend wisely and spend it for the maximum benefit. 

Even though I am not abounding as I used to, as far as taking care of the need of my family is concerned all are well taken care, without any lack. And no one, even my wife, t know and bear the burden that I have been bearing secretly. I would rather that my family be in peace and in happiness than letting know of the burden a father is bearing, which in any case is the responsibility of a father. In bearing my family responsibility, the Lord is training me to be abased. It is no easy lesson to learn to be abased. To abound is a much easier burden to bear.  

Somehow, the Lord provides the need to meet all the important and timely need of the family, ranging from children's educational expenses to the daily necessity of the family, and still providing the need, now and then, to make them happy, even with pretty little things. And in this midst, I do not shy away from considering to buy a house for our family, for the long run. Somehow, deep within me there is a a positive indication that I must go ahead in this direction sooner than later. The Lord is faithful as He has always been.

In learning to be abased, one important lesson is not to shrink back from dreaming big. It is easier to dream big when one abounds, but it is more significant to dream big even one is abased. This is the lesson I am learning these days. The same goes with the official need for buying our own office space. For both, I have the faith that the Lord will faithfully provide our needs.

It's amazing, this consideration of buying property is at its highest when I am at best abased. Feels like Moses leading the Israelites in the wilderness, simply trusting Jehovah for the daily manna with a hope of the goodland, Canaan. And that hope becomes stronger when in abased rather than in abound. Though, sometimes, I admit, I used to consider the servings ones like myself in other countries where they have all things set up; office premise including land and buildings, they simply focus on their specific service. But here in India, as of today, we still do not have the basic infrastructure of our own. Besides caring for the literature service, I also have to care for all the necessary infrastructure to carry out the official responsibility almost all from scratch, and that too when we hardly have anything in competence of this magnitude. But the trust and the faith within, irrespective of what is without, is at its best. 

Thank God for this lesson. And may I learn it thoroughly well this lesson, that I may be one with Paul in declaring, "I know also how to be abased, and I know how to abound; in everything and in all things I have learned the secret both to be filled and to hunger, both to abound and to lack."