Not Yet?

It was long since I have been burdened to upgrade my educational qualification. I thought this time I could make it as I applied for a research program in one of the most reputed universities in the country. But  since the time I received a call letter for exam and interview, I had ever been busy with my official responsibility, as I had been to the North East for the ministry of the word journey. Though I carried with me the text books for studying, in case I could find time, but I found myself engaged in the ministry of the word all the time. I dared not divert attention as I would handle first thing first, and not compromise on my priority. Thank God, I could fully discharged my burden fully for the ministry of word this time in the seventeen localities in four states the Lord led me to in the North East of India. In fact, the only time I could open up the text books for preparation was in the flight when I flew back from Imphal after mission accomplished.

Right from the time I landed in New Delhi, the difference of temperature was almost unbearable. On reaching home, my daughter was down with bacterial infection which I was not aware of. But she loved me so much and missed me during my absence, she came to hug me on my arrival. Later I got infected with the same bacterial infection. Though we both consulted different doctors, we ended up eating the same antibiotic. That laid me down to bed for days, and sovereignly it began on the night before I went for the exam. The two days before, were occupied with office matters which I could not lay aside either, finding myself with no time to study nor prepare for the exam.

Nevertheless, I went for the for the exam but my body was running high in temperature with headache and bodyache. I could not wait any further to rush back home and take rest. I simply reckon this as the Lord's hand tapping me to wait yet a little while for the upgradation. Initially, it was painful inside, but the Lord knows best. I simply submit myself to the Lord. Let His will be done.

The words of the Lord are loud and clear, but the timing, I still have to find out. I do not give up unless the Lord make it clear too, but still looking to the Lord for His further leading and proper timing. Besides, I will prepare myself thoroughly before I can venture into yet another training in life. 

Lord, lead and guide me at Your time.