Two Speakings

Time will reveal who is who in the eyes of the Lord. As for myself, I am optimistic type and always trusted in people, not because they are trustworthy, but because I trust them in the Lord. And I do continue to trust the Lord that if the ones I trust are not really trustworthy still the Lord would somehow work in them to make them truly trustworthy.

Of late, I have been "dealing" with two brothers whom I trust them despite some manifestation of "untrustworthy-ness". Though their words at times are "white-lies", still I trust them with the burden of perfecting them ultimately in this matter. The issue at which this matter of trust is in the matter of money. Money, indeed, is a true litmus test, of blue or red. No wonder, the Lord Himself said that there are two masters, God or mammon- material riches, which is measurable in monetary matter.

I have been through the thick and thin with these brothers involving money matters. And many times, there were reason not to trust them at all, if not ever. Somehow, the Lord restrained me from any form of condemnation or judgement within. Rather, as  I brought the matter before the Lord, I still have peace to trust them, for reason still not clear to me. I believe the Lord wants me to shepherd them even in money matter, perhaps, even through me?

To add more oil to the burning fuel, every time I heard of these brothers it is almost negative. This often cause me to shrink back a while and ponder over again of their integrity. Even my own feeling often condemns them as unfaithful. Yet again, as I turned to the Lord, all these cloud  of confusion faded away. And am not sure how long these two speakings, either of good or ill, will be oscillating like a pendulum. Perhaps, when time "stops?" 

Still, in the Lord, I trust them. And I hope I will continue to trust them until the end, only by virtue of being my brothers in the Lord. And I believe, ultimately, they will be perfected to be trust worthy one day. This is my hope, and this is my prayer for them too. 

Despite all that I have heard about them, yes, even despite my own feeling about them, the Lord still grace me to trust them. Whatever speakings I hear of them, either good or bad, still I will still trust them. The two speakings will gradually become one speaking, the speaking of Christ, concerning His children. 

To my discernment, often this kind of two speakings is an attempt of the enemy to create discord among brothers and create enmity, hatred, and finally divide and destroy God's children. With this discernment, I would in no way give in to the enemy's lies. And still continue to trust my brothers in the Lord, and pray for them and perfect them to be pillars for the Lord's testimony ultimately.

Lord, fill me with Your speaking only, concerning any person, matter or thing. Let any two speakings be merged into one speaking of the Lord, concerning anything. And that I may heed to Your speaking only.