Spiritual Babes

The Lord is sovereignly wise in His dealings with me. Though I was saved  a decade and half ago, still I need more growth in life. The Lord knows where I stand and I too know who I am in the Lord. As far as faith and basic understanding of the truth is concerned, by the Lord's covering, I may say the Lord has taught me. But as far as maturity is concerned, I am just "spiritual babe," learning to function as normal Christian. 

Even tonight as I was having my "pra-wlk" (prayer-walk), I could see how many things I need to learn from the Lord; His ways, His will and His timings. Time is the best test of what or how, who has become. Some of my discernment which I was even dead-sure of, were disapproved by the test of time; and I thanked the Lord for all that. My discernment has to be fine tuned and must be purely of the Lord without the contamination of the self. This is one of the proofs I am spiritual babe, needing more growth in life. And most of my improper discernments were in the matter of marriages,not mine but others'. Praise the Lord for these baby manifestations. Lest I brag about it and nullify the humility required of me and demands God's righteous judgement. 

Under the Lord's covering and trusting in the indwelling Spirit, the Lord has been gracing  me now and then to shepherd some saints in need. And all the time I helped them in the matter of growth by eating, drinking and breathing the Lord. Every time I did that, actually, I was ministering to myself as I ministered to the saints in need; the importance of spiritual growth from being a spiritual babe. And I too am still on the process of being trained. 

However, this matter of growth should not be overstretched to produce spiritual giants. Otherwise, it will be a sad repetition of history producing a lot of individualistic spiritual believers with no building up among themselves nor the Body of Christ. The growth in life of the believers is for the building up of the Body of Christ. Some believers have to be tampered, adjusted and shaped in many aspects, such as mine, to fit into the ongoing process of building up the Body of Christ. Minus these breakings and blendings, all spirituality will only divide the Body of Christ and God's desire in His economy will never be fulfilled.

Looking back, I thanked the Lord for all the mistakes and manifestations of immaturity I have committed. Lest I be blinded with pride and ignorance. Now I know what a wretched man I am, so my only trust and  hope is the Lord Jesus Christ, my only way is the cross and my only goal is to be builded up into the Body of Christ by being dealt with thoroughly until maturity for the preparation of the Bride to bring the Lord  back.

Lord, grow in me day by day. Never leave me as spiritual babe. Do all that You will, to make me a full grown man, at the measure of the stature of the fullness of Christ.