Twelve Twelve Twelve (12/12/12)

In my time with the Lord, cloud of confusion engulfed me; I didn't know why. Many thoughts-- the darts of the devil in darkness, seemingly, all aimed at my soul. I pondered over, I was fully in my soul when I should have been in my spirit. My prayer and prayer time was like a blind man dashing  black darts in darkness, hitting nowhere with nothing. 

In the midst, I exercised my spirit and touched the Lord, the Lord touched me in return. I confessed my sins and failures, and repented of my ungodly living and Christ-less being. Then, my understanding became very clear. On pure reason with clear mind, all these darkness were the attacks of the enemy, all were baseless, illogical and full of self-deceit. There was nothing wrong, of what I assumed were wrong. I became very clear; and the cloud of confusion left me at that instant. Then, I just praised the Lord! 

The next day, in fellowship with a brother (RC), he touched this matter of prayer and exactly described a matter which actually happened to me the night before. Praise the Lord for fellowship in the Body. The Lord speaks through the members. O what a release to exercise our spirit all the time! Otherwise, even soulful prayer is just the devil's religious tool to put people in darkness. Subjective experience of the objective truth is a great deliverance. 

After that prayer, I was fully released, I enjoyed the presence of God, and felt very happy. The burdens that burdened me were no burden at all. To rest in the Lord is a real rest, even in prayer. Later, I had a good rest and peace, and the next day morning a hymn learned from my childhood days came ringing and  I hummed it, enjoying the Lord through the hymn.

Guide me, O Thou gracious Savior 

Pilgrim through this barren land;

I am weak, but Thou art mighty,

Hold me with Thy pow’rful hand;

Bread of heaven,

Feed me till I want no more;

Bread of heaven,

Feed me till I want no more.

Open now the crystal fountain,

Whence the healing waters flow;

Let the fiery, cloudy pillar

Lead me all my journey through;

Strong Deliv’rer,

Be Thou still my strength and shield;

Strong Deliv’rer,

Be Thou still my strength and shield.

Source: http://www.hymnal.net/hymn.php/h/391#ixzz2FaM30qXY