Pray, Pray, and Pray

Pray, pray, and pray... This has been my Christian life these days. The Lord burdened me for many people and places for His testimony. But what I can do best as of now is pray, pray and pray. The burdens are heavy and there seems to be no way for me to carry out the burdens the Lord blessed me with. I cannot shy away from the burdens, nor can I run away from executing it. But I have no idea how the burdens can be carried out. When I considered all the burdens and how they should be carried out, I was just helpless. Nothing seems to work out. So the only thing I can do now, and, in fact, have been doing and also am very good at doing it is, pray, pray, and pray. Therefore, I resort to prayer as much as I can. And I love praying for the burdens and I enjoy praying for these burdens.

The burden for my official service, in serving the people of India with the timely and healthy ministry of the word as a healthy spiritual food supply, is being prayed for regularly. The burden to gain local families for the Lord's testimony, the burden for shepherding the saints and perfecting them in their functions, the burden for gospel preaching and gaining increase for the church, the burden for my ex-classmates for whom I initiated a monthly online meeting, the burden for North India for the spread of the ministry of the word in Hindi and the raising up of many golden lampstands all over India, especially North India among the Hindi speaking populace, the burden for my hometown-the salvation of my village people and tribesmen, the burden for my relatives in the flesh to be saved and recovered for the Lord's testimony, the burden for the Lord's testimony in the Nort East, and on and one. These burdens have been driving me to pray and pray. 

I am now just doing what I can do, and what I can do best, pray, pray, and pray. Praise the Lord for these burdens of prayer! May the spirit of prayer fill me and grace me to pray, pray, and pray.

Shillong: Brothers Fellowship and Prayer

But we will continue steadfastly in prayer and in the ministry of the word.  Acts 6:4 

On the 3rd of Oct 2020, I updated the brothers serving the work in India about the situation in Shillong. The Lord has been moving in the church in Shillong despite the outbreak of pandemic everywhere. Though they could not meet regularly, the number of new believers increased and the saints' fellowship grew stronger and stronger. The total number of saints the brother gave me on that day was 498 in 16 localities. Since then the saint's number also increased.

As far as the shepherding is concerned, I have been sending messages almost on a daily basis, an excerpt from a selected ministry book, topic by topic, sequentially and regularly. We have covered The Basic Revelation in the Holy Scriptures, and now we have almost covered The Tree of Life. Little by little the saints have been fed with the word of God. The Lord burdened me to do the best that I could do, that is pray for them and feed them with the word faithfully.

Sometimes, in the WhatsApp group, I was tempted to respond to certain posts, but the Lord reminded me not to meddle with any unrelated matter from the burden He bestowed me with. So I realized I should and must only post messages, excerpts from the ministry books, faithfully as a spiritual food supply to the saints.

As the shepherding in this way has been going on, there is also a burden for more fellowship and blending among the saints there and also with saints from other parts of the country. The Lord led me further to propose an online meeting for all the leading brothers with the brothers who oversee the Lord's move in the entire country. After much prayer, I proposed such a meeting, and also called up two of the main functioning brothers for the same. For a couple of weeks, I did not receive any reply. But still kept praying for them.

Finally, last week I receive a reply saying that the brothers were willing to meet online once every month, to start with, i.e., on the first of every month. This was a piece of rejoicing news to me. While I was waiting for the reply the enemy also tried to tempt me to think and speculate negatively why the brothers had not replied. But I kept committing the matter to the Lord and finally I was so glad to learn that the brother agreed to meet.

Besides, I was also informed that the sisters also decided to meet weekly.  Last Lord's day the sisters met in one of the sisters' home and it was a new beginning. The serving sisters came together to learn to pray and fellowship with one another. And the next day, the 1st of February, Monday, the brothers' meeting followed suit. 

I have been in fellowship with the brothers serving in the work and in fellowship, brothers from the church in New Delhi and Gurugram also joined the fellowship. Though we did not plan how we should meet as it was the first time, the Lord led us in His sovereignty. We all introduced ourselves one by one and shared our enjoyment of Christ. All the brothers' sharing became an all-inclusive message covering the matter of truth, the experience of life, the vision of the Body, and God's economy. Then we prayed together for the Lord's move in Shillong and Meghalaya.

The following day, a brother from Shillong called me to express His thankfulness to the Lord and how good he felt about the meeting online. He even proposed that we could have such a meeting twice a month, instead of just once. He felt very good about the Lord opening up the church in Shillong to the entire Body for more fellowship, blending, and building.

May the Lord continue to bless His move in Shillong and strengthen all the saints in their Christian life for the church life for His testimony!

Life Lesson: Fearing God

In this age of godlessness where many people don't care for anything concerning God, where they are drugged by the blind philosophy of modernism, and where the worldly-wise follow their dead conscience, there is a need for an anti-testimony against this age of godlessness. To know God and to fear Him reverentially is the remedy. All children of God must learn to fear God; all the young ones must learn to fear God at their young age. This is not merely a salvation but also a protection from the attacks of the enemy and a preservation from the influence of the sinful world.

The message on "Fearing God" in the training has thrown a lot of light on its intrinsic significance. Excerpts from the message are quoted verbatim: 

Fearing the Lord is to have a reverential, relational, openness, and obedience to the Lord. This is the first principle to be a proper human being; fearing the Lord, revering Him, fearing to offend God or losing His presence or missing the Lord's smile. It is aslo to fear our self in a positive way; not to express our self, but to express God only.

Proverbs 1:7a says, “The fear of Jehovah is the beginning of knowledge.” In 2 Corinthians 5:9 Paul says that “we are determined…to gain the honor of being well pleasing to Him.” To fear the Lord is not only fleeing from sins but also, and even more, rejecting the self; not merely to fear that we have sinned or that we are worldly but to fear that what we are doing is out of ourselves, not out of the Lord (Matt. 16:24; 2 Cor. 4:5). In 2 Corinthians 4:5 Paul says, “We do not preach ourselves but Christ Jesus as Lord, and ourselves as your slaves for Jesus’ sake.” Therefore, fearing God will honor God and will deny the self.

Example of Not Fearing the Lord

The first case involves Nadab and Abihu in Leviticus 10. As they were serving with Aaron, Nadab and Abihu “presented strange fire before Jehovah” (v. 1). Strange fire is a fire that is strange to God. It is strange because is it not the fire from heaven that burned on the altar of burnt offering. According to Leviticus 6:12 and 13, the first duty of the priests when they arose was to make sure that the fire on the altar of burnt offering was kept burning. God charged the priests to keep the fire burning on the altar continually (v. 13). Nadab and Abihu did not offer the fire from the altar. Instead, they offered their human-manufactured fire, which is strange fire. Strange fire signifies natural enthusiasm, natural affection, natural strength, and natural ability. I would emphasize that we should be on fire for the Lord. Revelation 3 makes clear that the Lord does not want us to be lukewarm, as were the Laodiceans (v. 16). He wants us to “be burning in spirit” (Rom. 12:11). However, we should be burning in our spirit, not in our soul-life. This is an important matter. 

The second case of not fearing the Lord is with Miriam in Numbers 12:1-10. Miriam and Aaron said, “Has Jehovah indeed spoken only through Moses? Has He not also spoken through us?” (v. 2). But God replied otherwise. Concerning Moses, He said to them, “With him I speak face to face, even openly, and not in riddles; And he beholds the form of Jehovah. Why then were you not afraid to speak against My servant, against Moses?” (v. 8). When Miriam rebelled against God’s deputy authority, she rebelled directly against God’s throne. This is very serious. 

The fear of God is the beginning of wisdom, and the knowledge of the Holy One is understanding; knowledge, wisdom, and understanding come from God; if we fear Him, revere Him, these will be our possessions (Prov. 1:1, 7; 2:4-5; 3:5-10; 8:13; 9:10; 10:27; 14:2, 26-27; 15:16, 33a; 16:6; 19:23). We fear the Lord by obedience and submission to Him. Ephesians 5:21 says, “Being subject to one another in the fear of Christ.” Many times we stop after being subject to one another; we do not emphasize in the fear of Christ. But the words in the fear of Christ are the most important part of verse 21. We have to be subject to one another in the fear of Christ. Practically, this means that we are in fear of offending Him as the Head. If we do not subject ourselves to the brothers, we will offend Christ as the Head because all the members are organically related to the Head. 

Fearing the Lord is a way to lengthen life (Prov. 10:27); God loves, saves, protects, blesses, and provides for those who fear Him (Psa. 103:11, 13, 17; 85:9; 60:4; Prov. 14:26-27; Psa. 115:12-13; 34:9; 111:5). We all should have a proper fear of God because we believers in Christ will all appear before the judgment seat of Christ; at that time Christ will judge His believers at His coming back, not concerning their eternal salvation but concerning their dispensational reward (2 Cor. 5:10; 1 Cor. 4:4-5; 3:13-15; Rom. 14:10).  

Acts 9:31 says, "So then the church throughout the whole of Judea and Galilee and Samaria had peace, being built up; and going on in the fear of the Lord and in the comfort of the Holy Spirit, it was multiplied." The holy fear of the Lord is actually a source of joy. Psalm 2:11 says, “Serve Jehovah with fear, And rejoice with trembling.” Our Lord was fully under God’s restriction; hence, He could reign for God; if we can be restricted by God and thus deal with ourselves, we will be able to reign for God. We need to be under God’s restriction in order to reign for God. 

This healthy speaking of the Lord is the need of the hour. May the Lord grace me to learn this lesson thoroughly well and that I may fear Him reverentially, trust in Him and honor Him all the days of my life.

An Opening for the Ministry

The capital city of the country is crucial for the Lord's testimony and it is for this reason that the Lord also brought us to New Delhi in 2005. Since then, the Lord's move has been going on in His recovery, slowly, gradually, and steadily. Now, the Lord has gained a considerable number of saints to bear His testimony and also open more doors for the spread and propagation of His ministry. The brothers who served in this city in the initial days had done their best; visiting and contacting a lot of seeking believers and Christian leaders. Though many of these ones are yet to take the way of the Lord's recovery, the Lord has been gaining many students and a good number of local families to bear Hist testimony.

From the literature point of view, we have done our bit in trying to reach out to the general Christian group by way of free distribution and also through sales. I believe one day, the Lord will make the ministry of the word a crucial spiritual food supply to all His children in the capital city as well as all over the country. As a preparation for that day, we have also translated a good number of ministry books into Hindi. Now, we are seeking the Lord's leading in how these Hindi ministry materials can reach the Lord's children at large. 

The past weeks have been noteworthy in the way the Lord leads us to begin a new way of reaching out to the Christian through the Christian book store. Unlike before, the door for further spread has been opened more and will be strengthened further. I have written to the responsible brothers in Delhi about the recent development. I believe the Lord will lead us through and strengthen His testimony, especially in the capital city.

Dear brothers,

Since 2005 we have been in touch with MSS, Masihi Sahitya Sanstha, Hindi Christian literature publisher, Janpath New Delhi. In 2015, Amana Literature hired them for Hindi translation of some crucial books. In 2016, we printed bulk books in Hindi, 700 copies of which, mostly of Watchman Nee were sold to them for their distribution through their networks all over North India. For some reason, brother Witness Lee's titles were not well received. This time on 21 Jan 2021, I went to fellowship with the manager and offered him the latest translation of our books, both of Watchman Nee and Witness Lee in Hindi, and also explained to him the usefulness of the Holy Bible Recovery Version. After consideration, he finally agreed to display our books in Hindi and English, both of brother Watchman Nee and Witness Lee. 

Today, the 28th of Jan, we came to deliver the books at their book shop in Khan Market, New Delhi. They also have another one in Janpath. We introduced the ministry books to the office staff so that they can introduce the same to their customers. We also had a good time of fellowship. Some copies of BXL 1 in Hindi and English were also given for distribution.

For Follow-Up

The sister in charge of the book store in Khan Market is Sis. SH. She is one of the members of a Christian group in Karol Bagh whom we met in 2005 with brother PL and CC. The key "pastor" at that time invited us to his place in Karol Bagh where we all shared our testimonies and the word of God in the open-air meeting conducted by him. It was indeed the Lord's sovereignty that we could meet and get to know that she is from that seeking believers' group, after 15 years! 

Today, we also shared the truth concerning the Christian life and the church life using some Bible verses. She is interested in fellowshipping more on the truth of the Bible. Since the "pastor" who led her and her family to the Lord left for another place, she, out of her burden to care for some 80 believers in Karol Bagh, is now singlehandedly shepherding the entire congregation. I introduced Brother J and Sister J to her verbally. She is open for fellowship and visitation. 

Pray that many seeking believers who visit the book shop can have a taste of the ministry.

Pray for the follow-up fellowship with Sis. SH and the believers in Karol Bagh.

I believe the Lord will gain this country, especially the capital city, all the state capitals, and the states of this country for His testimony. And we are one with the Lord for His move for the preaching of the gospel of the kingdom.

And this gospel of the kingdom will be preached in the whole inhabited earth for a testimony to all the nations, and then the end will come. Matthew 24:14

Serving God According God

In my study of the word today, the Lord showed me afresh the way to serve Him. The book of Exodus gave me a new light in the way Moses and the children of Israel served Jehovah. The same principle can be applied in serving the Lord today. Some key points that stood out are "Willingness, Wisdom, and Obedience, Resulting in Glory." Or paraphrasing the key points, serving the Lord is serving with a "Willing and Wise Heart as Jehovah Has Commanded to the Glory of God."

Willing Heart:  Serving the Lord is out of a willing heart. The willingness is caused by the Lord when He calls His people to serve. Anyone who is genuinely called by the Lord will ultimately give in to the Lord's calling. Jonah was called by God. Though he tried to escape, ultimately he gave in. The better is to immediately obey the Lord's calling just like the disciples of the Lord Jesus. Those who are called will also definitely have a willing heart to serve the living God who called them.

Ex 35:5Take from among yourselves a heave offering to Jehovah; whoever is of a willing heart, let him bring it, the heave offering of Jehovah: gold and silver and bronze,

Ex 35:21And they came, every one whose heart lifted him up and everyone whose spirit made him willing, and brought the heave offering of Jehovah for the work of the Tent of Meeting and for all its service and for the holy garments.

Wise in Heart: Those who are genuinely called by the Lord will also be equipped, trained, and perfected by the Lord. The builder of the tabernacle and its furniture were all filled by the Spirit of wisdom to be able to work in all kinds of skills and workmanships. The God who called also is the God of wisdom who bestowed His called ones with the wisdom they need to accomplish His calling. There is no such thing as being called yet not knowing how to serve. Those who are called will also be equipped to serve effectively.

Ex 35:10And let every man who is wise in heart among you come and make all that Jehovah has commanded:

Ex 36:1And Bezalel and Oholiab and every man who is wise in heart, in whom Jehovah has put wisdom and understanding to know how to do all the work for the service of the sanctuary, shall work according to all that Jehovah has commanded.

Ex 36:2And Moses called Bezalel and Oholiab and every man who was wise in heart, in whose heart Jehovah had put wisdom, even everyone whose heart lifted him up to come to the work to do it.

Ex 36:8And all the wise in heart among those who did the work made the tabernacle with ten curtains, of fine twined linen and blue and purple and scarlet strands, with cherubim, the work of a skillful workman. Bezalel made them.

As Jehovah had Commanded:  Those who are genuinely called and equipped will also obey all that Jehovah has commanded. Every instruction in the service will be carried out. Moses was called and he also obeyed every instruction given to him concerning the building of the tabernacle and its furniture. Everything was done exactly the way it was commanded to do. 

Ex 39:32Thus all the work of the tabernacle of the Tent of Meeting was finished, and the children of Israel did according to all that Jehovah had commanded Moses; so they did.

Ex 39:43And Moses saw all the work; and there it was — they had done it; just as Jehovah had commanded, so they had done. And Moses blessed them.

Ex 40:16Thus Moses did; according to all that Jehovah had commanded him, so he did. 19, 21, 23, 25, 27, 29, 32, 33.

A Pattern of the Serving Ones: The Bible also presents the pattern of such serving ones for us to follow today. These ones were called, were willing, were also filled with wisdom, and did the worked they were assigned to do exactly as they were commanded to do.

Ex 35:30And Moses said to the children of Israel, See, Jehovah has called by name Bezalel the son of Uri, the son of Hur, of the tribe of Judah.

Ex 35:31And He has filled him with the Spirit of God, with wisdom, with understanding, and with knowledge, and with all kinds of workmanship;

Ex 35:32Even to fashion skillful designs, to work in gold and in silver and in bronze,

Ex 35:33And in the cutting of stones for setting and in the carving of wood, to work in all kinds of skillful workmanship.

Glory of God: The result of serving God accordingly to His calling is to the glory of God. Whoever serves faithfully according to God's calling will always bring glory to the God he serves. There will be the expression of God through such genuine serving ones.

Ex 40:34Then the cloud covered the Tent of Meeting, and the glory of Jehovah filled the tabernacle.

Ex 40:35And Moses was not able to enter the Tent of Meeting, because the cloud settled on it and the glory of Jehovah filled the tabernacle.

This is the way to serve the living God according to His ways where the serving ones find favor in the sight of God. To such serving ones, the presences of God will be their ways, and as they serve they will be resting. Outwardly there may be services, but inwardly there will be peace and rest as the Lord's yoke is easy and His burden is light.

Ex 33:13Now therefore if I have found favor in Your sight, please let me know now Your ways, that I may know You, so that I may continue to find favor in Your sight. Consider also that this nation is Your people.

Ex 33:14And He said, My presence shall go with you, and I will give you rest.

Mt 11:28Come to Me all who toil and are burdened, and I will give you rest.

Mt 11:29Take My yoke upon you and learn from Me, for I am meek and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls.

Mt 11:30For My yoke is easy and My burden is light. 

This is a marvelous lesson the Lord taught me afresh today. May the Lord continue to grace me as His called ones, serving willingly with a wise heart in full obedience to His words unto the glory of God!

Christ, My Wisdom

"Wisdom" is the one thing that I have been considering in the light of the word of God and in my experience these days. I know I need it so much that every time I made some decisions, especially when those decisions I took did not turn out with positive results I wondered if I acted in wisdom at all. In a couple of instances, I felt I should have been wiser. Perhaps, my discernment has not been that accurate, and that I truly lack wisdom. This brought me to the pray of Solomon for wisdom: 

And now, O Jehovah my God, You have made Your servant king in the place of David my father, though I am a little child; I do not know how to go out or come in. And Your servant is in the midst of Your people, whom You have chosen, a vast people that cannot be numbered or counted for multitude. Give therefore to Your servant an understanding heart to judge Your people and to discern between good and evil. For who is able to judge this great people of Yours? And this word seemed good in the sight of the Lord, that Solomon had asked for this matter. And God said to him, Because you have asked for this matter and have not asked for long life for yourself and have not asked for riches for yourself and have not asked for the life of your enemies, but have asked for discernment for yourself to understand justice; I now do according to your words. I now give you a heart of wisdom and understanding, so that there has been no one like you before you, nor will one rise up after you like you. 1 Kings 3:7-12

This is the prayer that I have been praying to God as well. I truly need wisdom that comes from God. The Lord in His sovereignty answered my prayer by showing me what the real wisdom is and how I can have wisdom. The message on "The Multifarious Wisdom of God" in the ongoing training on the Crystallization-study of Job, Proverbs, and Ecclesiastes just met my need.

Some key excerpts from the training:

What is Wisdom? Where is Wisdom from? Who is Wisdom? How to have Wisdom?

On a human level, wisdom involves deep and experiential understanding, keen discernment, insight, and the capacity for sound judgment. In our practical daily living, wisdom is the way in which we plan, initiate, and carry things out. When we encounter a difficult situation or problem, the way we address it and relate to it will demonstrate whether or not we have wisdom.

There is the wisdom of the world that is foolishness as in 1 Corinthians 1:20. There is fleshly wisdom as in 2 Corinthians 1:12. And there is also the wisdom of God. According to 1 Corinthians 1:24, the wisdom of God is the crucified Christ. The Christ who is the wisdom of God said, “I am the way” (John 14:6). Thus, the wisdom of God is Christ, and Christ Himself is the way. Whenever we initiate something while taking Christ as our life and our person, we experience Him as our wisdom and our way. 

The book of Proverbs is "For knowing wisdom and instruction; For discerning words of understanding;" Proverbs 1:2. We must have wisdom from God, that it can keep us in the way of life. In the New Testament today, Christ Himself is the wisdom of God. Experientially, wisdom may also be understood as the way in which we do things. Therefore, in our living and service, we must seek the divine wisdom in the carrying out of our responsibilities, for we will have to give an account of our works to the Son of Man, who is wisdom. 

Wisdom is more valuable and better than gold, silver, and corals, and is more desirable than anything else—3:14-15; 8:11, 19.

Prov 2:6 For Jehovah gives wisdom; From His mouth come knowledge and understanding;
Prov 3:14 For her profit is better than the profit of silver, And her income is better than gold.
Prov 3:15 She is more precious than corals, And nothing you desire compares with her.
Prov 8:11 For wisdom is better than corals, And nothing that you desire compares with her.
Prov 1:20 Wisdom cries out in the street; She utters her voice in the open squares.

Wisdom is personified. God’s creation of all things is through Christ, who is wisdom and
God’s delight (3:19; Col. 1:16-17; Heb. 1:2). Our wise God will take us through every step of the process of transformation so that we can be raptured as the overcomers. 

1 Cor 1:24 But to those who are called, both Jews and Greeks, Christ the power of God and the wisdom of God.

The Lord knew how to be with any kind of person. He knew what to say and what to do, and He understood all kinds of people. This is how He lived; everything He did was by the wisdom of God. To experience Christ as wisdom, we need to pray for wisdom. Often time, our own wisdom led us astray and we need to repent to the Lord, “Lord, I repent for all the things I have said and done that were apart from You as my wisdom. Lord, I am Your disciple and learner. Train me to live You.” 

Christ’s work is to produce us as the children of wisdom caring for the life of wisdom. Therefore, we need to pray for wisdom, “Lord, do what is on Your heart concerning me. Accomplish what You want. You are the wise God; You know what to do and how to do it.” 

Since wisdom and knowledge are stored up in Christ as a treasure, we cannot have wisdom and knowledge unless we have Christ—Col. 1:27; 3:4.

Col 1:27 To whom God willed to make known what are the riches of the glory of this mystery among the Gentiles, which is Christ in you, the hope of glory, 

Col 3:4 When Christ our life is manifested, then you also will be manifested with Him in glory. 

In fact, as Christians, Christ is in us and Chris is our life. If we exercise our being to contact the Lord, Christ as the life-giving Spirit will saturate our spirit and our mind, and we will have in our experience the wisdom and knowledge that are hidden in Christ—2:3.

Col 2:3 In whom all the treasures of wisdom and knowledge are hidden.

1 Cor 1:30 But of Him you are in Christ Jesus, who became wisdom to us from God: both righteousness and sanctification and redemption, 

The phrase to us in verse 30 indicates something experiential that is taking place continuously, day after day. We do not receive wisdom all at once. If we would pause and pray, “Lord, I do not trust myself in this situation. Save me from reacting out of my flesh and my self,” then the transmission would come.

God puts us in a situation where we need a continual supply of Christ as wisdom to us. If we remain with the Lord to receive His dispensing (John 15:4-5), He will be transmitted into us as the wisdom to handle various problems and matters. As we progress in our human life, Christian life, and church life, the various problems, and matters that we encounter become increasingly more difficult and challenging. This is so that we may experience Christ as wisdom for God’s delight in a deeper way. Thus, we should not fear the problems and circumstances in either our personal life or in man’s existence as human beings on the earth. If we remain in the divine transmission, we will experience the divine wisdom moment by moment and will spontaneously know what we need to do, say, think, feel, or decide. We are connected to the throne and to the seven Spirits of God, who are moving over all the earth. Our Father God longs that His children of wisdom would live under this transmission more and more. If we are one with the Lord and receive His dispensing, we will experience and enjoy Him as our wisdom day by day and hour by hour (1 Cor. 6:17; 1:30).

Wisdom comes from our living contact with God, not by trying to be wise or trying to imitate Christ in an outward way. Day by day, moment by moment, by opening to God and contacting Him, more and more of Christ as wisdom will be transmitted into me to be my wisdom. This is how I can be wise and this is how God answered my quest for wisdom.

May the Lord preserve me under His divine dispensing to gain more of Him and to experience Him as my wisdom. The answer to my great quest is, "Christ is my Wisdom!"

Fear God: Care for the Needy

The fear of Jehovah is the beginning of knowledge; Fools despise wisdom and instruction. Proverbs 1:7 

Therefore also we are determined, whether at home or abroad, to gain the honor of being well pleasing to Him. 2 Corinthians 5:9 

The past few days I have been considering if I did the right thing in helping the needy saints. Though I took the initiative to help the needy saints as much as I could, praying for them and praying with them, and even arranging some financial assistance to meet their needs, I even reconsidered if I were overtaken by my emotion or did it in my natural human "goodness". I even questioned myself if I was being cheated by some of these needy saints who expressed their needs to me, or were they craftily taking advantage of my soft heart? In fact, I was a little concerned if I gave the wrong impression to the needy saints, giving room for them to play with my emotion and generosity.  For some reason, the needy saints generally called me to fellowship with me about their situations. Generally, I sympathize with them and made arrangements to help them out. As I was considering my so-called "caring for the needy", I was comforted by the Lord through His speaking. Today morning I received this word from the PSRP of our training, "Fearing the Lord causes one to be touched by the suffering of others and showing mercy and compassion to them."

The first principle for man to live a proper human life is for him to fear the Lord, to revere the Lord; fearing the Lord stops us from doing evil; it also causes us to be touched by the sufferings of others and to show mercy and compassion to them. (Excerpt from the Crystallization-Study of Job, Proverbs, and Ecclesiastes, Message Eleven)

The Lord is the best pattern for me to follow. When He was on the earth He cared for the needy even if they just came to Him to meet just their needs. The Lord still cared for them without any expectation from them in return. But He did it in oneness with the Father.

In the past few months, I had been quite involved in my inward being with five families as I came to know about their real situation, especially of their urgent financial needs. I did my best to make necessary financial arrangements in a way of offering or otherwise too. As I fellowshipped with them I could feel the pain that they have been going through. I reckon their needs as my own need. But I first brought the matter to the Lord in prayer. After the peace and confirmation from the Lord, I made arrangements within my own capacity and some I fellowshipped with the church brothers to make arrangements from the church side. The cases that were brought to me were all taken care of. There was indeed such peace and life flowing after helping the needy saints. 

Though there was a reconsideration of what I have been doing for caring for the needy saints, the Lord confirmed to me through His speaking that caring for the needy is indeed an aspect of fearing the Lord reverentially.

To fear the Lord is to consider and regard Him in everything, never forgetting that He is the wonderful God who has created us (Isa. 43:7); fearing the Lord stops us from doing evil; it also causes us to be touched by the sufferings of others and to show mercy and compassion to them. (Excerpt from the Crystallization-Study of Job, Proverbs, and Ecclesiastes, Message Eleven)

Now I have been comforted by the Lord's speaking that I did what I should have done. Therefore, no regrets about caring for the needy. In fact, I should care for the needy much more as much as the Lord allows me to and provides me the resources to do so. This is an aspect of fearing the Lord and being determined to gain the honor of being well-pleasing to Him.