This was my third time attending the live Summer Training; this time on the Crystallization-study of Number, 2. This time I was fully prepared to deeply get into the word of God. I had prepared a notebook to capture all the special light and revelation the Lord would reveal to me. From day one, message one, till the sixth-day, message twelve, the last message, I did my best to grasped the main burden in each message and the revelation I got through the brothers' release of the word. During the study time, I did my best to exercise to dive into the truths and prepared myself for testing, if asked at all. Every time I attended the live training, I at least got an opportunity to prophesy in front of all the saints. The first time, I got 10 seconds to declare "the calling of the Lord." The second time, I got 20 seconds to prophesy on "the Jubilee." And this time I got 30 seconds in the testing on the "Christ as Typified by the Bronze Serpent".
A Special Experience
In every message, I was looking for an opportunity to prophesy. And I prepared myself well. At least three times as I decided to go up to the mike to prophesy, the announcement was to prophesy in groups, which I did. Then on the fourth day of our training, the saints from Asia including India were called out for testing. Though I prepared the message and I was not sure which part of the message I would be tested as this depends on when my time would come. I stood there in the line waiting for my time. Generally, I would be ready with sentences to prophesy. But this time my experience was very unique. I keenly followed on what was being spoken from the message point by point as I had to continue the flow of the testing. I had no choice to speak what I wanted, for I could only speak the point following who spoke just before me. It was a wonderful experience.
My turn was to speak on II, C, and D of the message. Just before I spoke my mind was completely blank. All the points that I mentally prepared to speak on all went away. I felt like standing there to offer what I did not have. But I listened carefully to the ones speaking before me and followed the speaking by declaring the wonderful redemption Christ had accomplished at the cross through His crucifixion and resurrection. Then, I followed the ministry speaking in the outline. The ministry became a clear guideline for me to speak. I need not add anything nor subtract anything. I simply repeated and echoed what the Lord had spoken in the ministry. That's exactly what I did. So I declared:
John 3 reveals that regeneration is not only to bring the divine life into the believers but also to make them the corporate bride for Christ’s increase; as Adam was increased in Eve, so Christ is increased in His bride!By Christ being lifted up on the cross as the bronze serpent, Satan’s increase has become Christ’s increase, His bride; we who were once the increase of Satan have become the increase of Christ!
After the testing, the following days and weeks, I thought to myself and wondered, "What had just transpired?" Generally, I would have something to say in addition to the truths. But this time, I had nothing to add to the truths. I could only declare, and even repeat, verbatim, word for word. Then I realized, the Lord has been training and perfecting me to speak nothing but the ministry. I don't need to add anything to make it better or nicer, nor do I need to remove any word. The ministry speaking must be my speaking.
Praise the Lord for such training in the Lord's recovery! Praise the Lord for such a unique yet wonderful experience concerning the ministry, especially in speaking!