On my way back from the literature journey in the first week of this month on a train, I had been considering upgrading my qualification in my service. I had just then been fighting the theological battle of defending the truth the Lord has blessed His recovery with. Then, I wrote a mail to a brother concerning two matters:
Dear Brother K____,
Two matters I want to fellowship with you:
Learning GreekI feel the need to learn Greek again though I have already gone through the course six times, I still feel I have not really learned enough. If you would allow me to join the online course again, I want to listen to your lecture and go through the course as much as possible. Please let me know.
Researching on Christian ApologeticsThese days I have a burden to pursue an online or part time research on "Christian Apologetics" to learn to dialogue with Christian leaders and theologians in India, to defend the truths the Lord has recovered through brother Nee and Lee of which we are introducing, distributing, and propagating, and to critique the notions surrounding denominational Christian beliefs and practices.
I believe some saints are already doing it, if so, I can learn from them. To this extent, I am considering to join some good theological online or part time course, even to have a reputed theological standing while defending the truths.
I have been learning to write for about ten years now. Till date I have written 987 articles/posts and blogged them as "My Good Land" based on my personal experience and enjoyment of the Lord through the ministry of the word. I want to improve my writing skill to that of a scholarly standard.
These are my personal feelings only, I feel good to fellowship with you as a brother, personally, and as a serving one in the literature service, officially.I also feel these learnings will help me in my service.
Please let me know how you feel about these.
I just poured out to a brother what was boiling in my heart then. Later, I received a reply from him, and what impressed me was what he wrote concerning the second matter of Christian apologetics.
As to your other question concerning Christian apologetics, my one question is this: Can you say definitely that your burden is from the Lord? I would strongly advise you not to touch this realm without His commission.
I was glad that a brother seriously considered the matter in fellowship and replied accordingly. Though I did not reply back as I felt that I need not prove to anyone that the burden I had is truly from the Lord. In fact, I wrote the mail because the Lord burdened me. To me, anything from the Lord or anything of the Lord, it will manifest in its own time by itself. I would be a fool to try to prove that my burden is from the Lord. Time will manifest.
As far as Christian apologetics is concerned, I have been indirectly and informally involved since 2003 when the Lord led me into the church life in His recovery. I have been attacked since then, and psychologically persecuted by some fellow Christians who hardly read anything of the ministry. Their "theological" attacks have been so untheological and unprofessional as most of them are based on hearsays or partial understanding of the ministry with an intent of misaiming. In all my literature journey to different parts of India, I have been "fighting" and functioning as a Christian apologetic, though without a formal theological degree. By the way, the Lord graced me to visit all the states of India from 2006-2018. And all these years have been that of researching on Christian apologetics.
I do believe in time, the Lord would perfect me in this matter according to His words:
In meekness correcting those who oppose, if perhaps God may give them repentance unto the full knowledge of the truth, 2 Timohty 2:25The will of the Lord be done! Amen!
Holding to the faithful word, which is according to the teaching of the apostles, that he may be able both to exhort by the healthy teaching and to convict those who oppose. Titus 1:9