Double Blessing

Since my childhood my grandparent taught me the importance of offering to the Lord for His move on the earth. Even when I grew up, the Lord has been gracing me to offer from all His blessings. And this has been one my covenants with my wife when we get married that we would offer in one accord from all the blessings we received from the Lord. And the Lord is faithfully blessing us and He also became our faithfulness in offering to Him in return. It has always been a joy to be able to offer.

Though the Old Testament speak about tithe (10% of every blessing) which many Christian religiously and sometimes superstitiously stick onto. I do not take this as a "bondage" but as a "law of life not in legality." And I do not subscribe to the 10% only doctrine either. To me, all comes from the Lord and all belongs to Him too. Not only in financial matter but also in all things including time, and energy. In fact, I rather regard this as a minimum weigh scale in principle rather than something to be bound by. 

Of late, the Lord gave me a feeling to offer more, and in fact, to double it as the majority of Christian would have done. I seriously had been considering for a while and asked the Lord to increase my faith. Surprisingly, the Lord knew my heart and my burden and made a new arrangement in my service in such a way that I can actually offer what I had been burdened to offer, doubling the percentage of what I generally used to offer.

To me, to be able to offer more is a healthy sign of being blessed by God. What do I have which I do not receive? All comes from the Lord and all should belong to Him. The need met of my own is the Lord's need met, as I am not my own but the Lord's.

Doubling the offering is doubling in blessings. 

Lord increase my faith even to offer more!

Fellowship in the Body : In Decision Making

The Body life is real, experiential and corporate. As a member in the Body, I cannot be individualistic and be aloof from the other members. Anything that I decide and do affects the other members too. If not, I am still not being builded in the Body.

Recently the Lord gave me a wonderful experience of the Body life. In my official service I can make a decision according to my discretion as deemed fit for the smooth functioning of the responsibility I am assigned to. But deep within I felt I should still check with some other members of the Body too. Though I myself feel it good to go ahead, but as I decided to get a brother as a new staff for our North India distribution, the Lord reminded me to remind him to also fellowship with the responsible brothers in his locality which he did. 

Based upon this arrangement a brother fellowship with me his feeling concerning the matter. As I considered and prayed over it, I was reminded of the need for adjustment on my side and I amen the fellowship of the brothers. Initially, it was a little difficult to reconsider what has been already considered, but based on the fellowship and feeling of a brother, a change was made. And this change turn out to be a better plan.

This fellowship was a "salvation" to me, as the adjustment made was very apt and better than my original plan. Upon consideration again it became clear to me, the Lord's leading was confirmed by the Body in fellowship. What I do not see the other members of the Body can see. And in fellowship the best plan can be obtained.

If not for the Body life I am in, there are many chances to be mislead by my own narrow understanding of the divine things. But in fellowship, the will of Lord is made clear. Ont he one hand it is of the Lord, yet on the other hand it is through the Body. The Head and the Body works together in absolute oneness for the carrying out of God's will.

As the decision was conveyed to the brother concerned, he also feel it is best. As he himself is not very clear yet as to what the leading of the Lord is. The Lord will surely lead him in a way He can gain him. Overall the fellowship we had together was very sweet and it was a shepherding to him.

Lord, keep me one with You the head and one with Your Body, at all time and in all things.

Vision Enlarged

Though the Lord tarries His coming again and we are on this earth for a moment, journeying through life unto eternity, solid establishment to carry out the Lord's work cannot be neglected either. This world is not our home indeed, but neither do we stop to live in this world till we die. So still some practical arrangement for the furtherance of the Lord's work much be carried out in this world.

In my literature service for almost a decade now, I discern it right to seriously consider our own physical establishment even in terms of assets, including property and manpower. What will happen in the future only the Lord knows, but a proper planning for now cannot be derided.  On this regard, after a long gap of prayers, I freshly pick up the burden to buy our own space for the Lord's work to go on. To this effect, I have also brought the matter in fellowship with the brothers coordinating with me. And we all feel its time now to seriously pray and plan.

God's work according to God's will and done in God's way will never lack God's supply. This will ever be my principle in any plan, be it official or personal. And I thank the Lord that He is leading me toward this direction. Yes, not just me, but with my fellow brethren. And I truly believe the Lord will lead us through.

On the ground reality, everything of my consideration is an "impossible" task, but the Lord will make it possible as He is giving me the faith to trust Him so. Land prices are exorbitantly sky high, leave alone construction and others. Still, we will pray and plan. My vision has been enlarged, to come out of my own cocoon and gaze at the God of the universe. The heavens and the earth belongs to Him, so what big deal is this petty need to Him? Once He approves, it is done. 

The plans are conceived and will pass through much prayer and fellowship. And in the process I will learn all that I need to learn.

Lord, enlarge my vision and accomplish Your plan.

Experiences Enlarged

When I was much younger in the Lord I would love the cherishing with praises of others for any matter whatsoever. In fact, such applause would even enthused me to do more supplementary deeds seeking the praises of men and secretly glorying in the complements of novices alike. Not nullifying all these, as they were apt for those days of such as I was, but now, by the Lord's mercy, having grown a bit more and learning more lessons of life, I would go before the Lord and humbly acknowledge His grace if there is anything praiseworthy; not mine own, but His.

These days, the lessons I have been learning are mostly with the critics within and opposers without. To both the pandemic and the panacea is "Christ, and Him crucified." I only have to care for being one Spirit with the Lord. If this condition is met from my side, all is at rest. For the opposer would only be opposing Christ and the critics would be criticizing Christ, not me, for I am in Christ, one with Christ. In fact, the Christian life is just this; being in Christ and living Christ.

Of late, I have been experiencing the bitter sweetness of being opposed or criticized. The grace of the Lord has been abundant enough to bear whatever the negative speakings, for all were misconstrued, taken out of context and blown out of proportion. In such incidents I went before the Lord and do "health check-up" and listen to what the Lord has to say. Most of the time, the Lord's smile was with me and I have not veered from His will. As long as there is a perfect peace and joy of the Lord within, what others say does not really mean anything, and must all be taken to the Lord in prayer. Unless the Lord specifically leads, not even an iota of thought should be entertained for vindication. A must remembrance, we are still men in the flesh and should not trust in ourself. Leave all matters to the Lord; He knows best: what to do, when to do and how to do.

The Lord has been gracing me enough to smile and take all attacks and criticisms as much as He allows. When an elder brother of my father's age bluntly points finger at me with all fabricated assumption, some half truth and mostly false allegation, I listened to him in pin drop silence with not a word of reftation, for I reckon it folly to do so. Deep within, I only pray that the Lord will grant him the grace to see the reality of what the Lord has been doing these days. In fact, the Lord's blessing is pouring which he fails to see. And in time he will see and glorify the God of glory from Whom are all things and to Whom are all things.

Such cases are nothing new to me, as my own father had done years ago until he finally received the Lord and I had to baptise him on his request. And since then, he stopped all negative speakings. The same seems to happen now and then with somene who does not really see the reality of all that has been happening these days. Little am I bothered by such, as I am assured that in time, all will be well as it is already well.

These are some experiences on the negative side, the Lord allows for my growth and perfecting in serving Him. Without the cross, there can be no resurrection; without out death, there can be no life released; and without suffering, there can be no genuine transformation. The fiery sun only helps the harvest ripens as only birth pangs brought forth a new born.

To all these wonderful experiences enlarged, I give glory to God and praise Him for all His multifarious wisdom. As much as His grace graces me, the more the better.

Lord, enlarge my experiences of You. 

Family Enlarged

Under the Lord's sovereignty, my sister's daughter came to stay with us for her education. This brought in a very well knit family tie within our family, especially within my sibling. As we stay together as a family for a couple of months now, the Lord reminded me of my need to be enlarged and be broad-hearted in shepherding. Through the Lord's mercy, we are blended together as one family and we, me and my wife, reckon my sister's daughter as our own too, adding to the three the Lord already blessed us with. She being elder than our own children, we have reckon her as our "eldest daughter" and the rest should look up to her as such. With this new blessing, we are now a family of four children.

Humanly speaking too, it is justified for me to reckon her as my eldest daughter as my sister had lost her husband when her only begotten daughter was just about five months old. Subjectively, she never knew what a daughter is to her father and never had any opportunity to call any one "daddy." In blood relation I am her uncle yet I would rather that she take me as her "dad" and I treat her as my "daughter" as I do to the other two daughters. To this effect I have fellowshipped with my wife, my burden and educated our children to consider her as their eldest sister. 

In fact, I also fellowshipped in our family time that I accepted her as my daughter and that she reckon me as her dad. This is a comfort to my sister as she cares for her daughter so much and would do anything for her well being. Thus from all angle, it is deemed she be our eldest daughter and be organically a member of our family too.This is our family enlarged, and the Lord's blessing.

Still learning to be a father to my own children, and with this addition, I am learning more lessons of life. Personally, I prefer life to grow and develop on its own, and in time we will learn what all are needed to learn. Life matters are not taught and learned, but are experienced and learned. So we embarked on a journey of life to learn and learn, learn of the Lord. 

Thank you Lord for the added grace, extended blessing and a new member into our family. As You enlarged our family, so also enlarge our heart to love and care as You would.  

God's Promise

Psalm 2:8   

Ask of Me, 

And I will give the nations as Your inheritance 

And the limits of the earth as Your possession.

This is the promise of God during my time with Him a week ago. My impromptu reply to the Lord's promise was, North India and North East India! These are the two regions that the Lord implanted His burden into my heart. Not mine, but His. And time and again, the Lord proved to me that my calling and service on the gospel preaching, shepherding and perfecting is for these two regions. Though at the moment I seem to confront a stiff opposition from the enemy without, but my burden is nevertheless lightened, but much more strengthened by the day.

At times, during my time with the Lord, the burden within me was so strong that I told the Lord that by His grace I am willing to be martyred. Only if He grants this special mercy, that will be an honor, and in His absolute sovereignty for His glory. Despite the outward ambiance of spiritual drought, dryness and deadness, the aura within is complete peace, joy and love for the people of these regions. Though vivid fruits may not have been manifested as yet, still the seed of the divine life have been sown to quite a number of the local ones; many have believed into Jesus Christ, some have been baptised, few have come to the church life, and to my faith and hope, many are awaiting the free gift of God, the Lord Jesus Christ.

Even to this regard, the Lord has been working on me and my family to adapt to the local lifestyle, language and living. In fact, many legal documents pertaining to me and my family are as per the law of this land. And I am happy about it. I love the people and the land. And I am mingling with the locals, some of them are now my dear brothers in Christ with whom I can pray and fellowship with, even on a daily basis. What a joy it is to be in the will of the Lord! And what He asked me of and what I asked from Him, is all in conformity to His will for me and my family.

Besides, in my dealing with the people of these regions, the Lord graces me His special blessing and anointing. Every time I am in fellowship or in contact with the people, there always is s special grace to carry out what was intended to. For this is, indeed, the sure promise of the Lord, in burden, in vision and in goal, I have asked of the Lord, these regions as the "nation" for His inheritance.

God asked of me to ask of Him, and so I asked for "the gospelization, the truthization and churchization of the North India and the North East India." 

Lord, may Your will be done!

Shepherding : As Father and Mother

1 Thessalonians 2:7  But we were gentle in your midst, as a nursing mother would cherish her own children.11 Just as you know how we were to each one of you, as a father to his own children, exhorting you and consoling you and testifying,

In shepherding the saints the Lord taught me this very important lesson of being a "mother" and a "father" to the ones He bestowed as "guardian." For reason of time and space, I have tried to "hand over" the shepherding of the new ones under my care to the saints in their vicinity. In fact, once I introduced them I left the responsibility of shepherding to them, trusting that all would go well. But later, I discovered that all is not well all the time. The way an "uncle or aunty" would care for children is entirely different form how a "mother and father" would care. For life relationship itself is entirely different. Even with utmost care and concern, the heartbeat of a mother and father is different from that of somebody else. Life relationship cannot be transferred, so is genuine shepherding. This is what I have been learning and experiencing all this while.

A doctor couple, a bureaucrat and a lecturer, an IT engineer, a business manager, retired officials,..whom the Lord has graced me to shepherd them to Him and had been shepherding them for quite sometime, but due to my limited-ness I had "transferred" them to some other brothers and sisters for the follow up shepherding. Though some shepherding is going on for some interval, I ultimately discovered the lack and the urgent need for me to still continue to shepherd them. The genuine care of a nourishing mother and exhorting father can never be replaced by none other, however spiritual or mature someone may be. Father is father and mother is mother and it will always be. Nothing can alter this parental relationship. Not nullifying the function and shepherding of other brothers and sisters to take over, but stating the fact as subjectively as it is.

Since last month I have been burdened by the Lord all over again to still continue the shepherding of all these dear ones despite the factor of time and space. So I freshly decided to continue at least the phone call prayer-fellowship-shepherding at least once a week. Glad that the Lord reminded me and is training me to be a proper nourishing mother and exhorting father.

I know I have my limitation and shortcomings; and often, I tend to "transfer" the shepherding under the cloak of coordination, but the Lord reminded me again and again, never to give up on anyone, for whatever reason. Praise the Lord for this lesson of shepherding.

Lord, make me a proper shepherd; shepherding as father and mother.