Experience : Tree of Knowledge

Today the Lord gave me an experience of the tree of knowledge, which is deadness and darkness, for a while. 

A month ago I had so much peace and joy to invest on plots in NH4 and I did so with much prayer and in  oneness with my wife. Everything was so joyful at the very thought of it, and in the very act of executing the planned investment, including all the payments and registration processes. It has been a joyful moment and it should ever be. 

But the attack of the enemy was eminent. Though I intend to keep this matter personal, but the brother who helped me in all the processes leaked the news in joy to other brothers when we met them. Though it has been a joyful news indeed, to be able to own lands here, the enemy was not joyful at all. He incited all negative thoughts in comparison with some other subordinate deals. With all these thoughts on the tree of knowledge killed my spirit almost. I was filled with doubts and darkness for a while. But as I knelt in prayer, the Lord reminded me that everything I did was in utter consent and agreements to all terms and conditions laid down by the company even before I ventured to invest on it. Everything I did was with full agreements on all the terms and conditions and payments plan. The Lord reminded me that I should not pay heed to all post thoughts and analysis based on the tree of knowledge of good and evil, right or wrong, but to the tree of life that led me to do the investment. Even if I had been cheated, though not, the God who led me through is the God of righteousness and I should not worry a bit. Even if something has gone wrong without my consent, I should not bother a bit. For the Lord is the sovereign one who rules above all.

After this prayer, the attack of the enemy on deadness and negative feelings left me completely. When it should be a joyful day, the enemy wanted to turn it into a dreadful day. I must never eat of the tree of the knowledge of good and evil, but always of life. It was indeed a sweet experience to un-experience the the experience of the tree of knowledge. Always eat and live by the tree of life.

Time with the New Ones

Under the banner of service in the Body, often I reckon shepherding can be done by any member. Yes indeed, but the there is a point to remember. Once we beget spiritual babies they are literally and spiritually our spiritual babies. Just like a mother begets a child and nourishes the child, we must nourish our children. Though all mothers knows how to nourish their own children, they may not be able to nourish the children of others as  good as they nourish their own children. The same case applies with our spiritual babies.

The Lord has been blessing and gracing me to nourish some spiritual children. But as time went by, more spiritual children were added and I could find no time to care for them adequately. Slowly I brought in some brothers to coordinate with me to carry out the shepherding and gradually I backed out so that they could continue, and I can beget more children. This process went on for quite sometime. But the time came when those brothers could not continue with it for some reasons. So I have to pick up the burden all over again. 

The last three weekends was on revisiting and reviving these new ones. It was such a grace to be able to shepherd new ones of various kind. The wisdom and the grace of the Lord is required, without which, instead of shepherding they would be starved spiritually. One deep lesson I learned, the care that a mother can give, no one else can give. Our spiritual children must be shepherded by us, as much as possible, until they grow to maturity when they can shepherd other in turn as we do. I lack in shepherding them unto maturity, so when I handed them over to other saints to follow up it did not work.

The time spent with the new ones was joyful and fruitful. Besides, as we went out to preach the gospel the anointing of the Lord was so sweet. Whomever we met were sons of peace; we preached the gospel and they received the Lord. It was such a blessed time spending with the new ones. More lessons I need to learn is how to make all these new ones a solid remaining fruits for the church. This matter, the Lord has to train and perfect me.

Lord, make me a faithful and fruitful shepherd.

The Call of the Needy

Yesterday was a day I set aside for a "holiday" of rest after lunch. The whole week I have been so busy and the only time I could steal out for myself was on Saturday after lunch. As I was eating my lunch I received a phone call from a sister who is a younger sister of one of the brothers in the church life. In fact, it was surprising to receive such a call as it was very unexpected. As I attended the call, it was a request for an emergency fellowship for something that the sisters have been going through. Without much further consideration, the Lord impressed me deep within that this is the call of the saints in need and as a responsible brother I must  take it seriously and attend to the call for fellowship. Then I decided to visit them and did visit them.

The Lord has been leading them through various thick and thin, and they were at a juncture where they desperately needed a help, though the nature of their problems were physical, but their intrinsic need was a spiritual supply.  After listening to whatever they were going through I fellowshipped with them the Christian life as a meal offering life as in Leviticus 2, and the need to be mingled with God more and the need to be baked in the oven to be a cake for the meal offering that would satisfy God and the offerer. The fellowship was so anointed and sweet that it went on and on. When I finally felt the burden within me has been dispensed, we prayed together and I left. It was four hours of fellowship.

Today the sister came to the Lord's table meeting for the first time. Whatever reason that have hindered her from coming before has been dealt with. In fact, her brother and I have been praying for this sister for quiet sometime now. The Lord is sovereign and He did things in His own time. His timing is the best. Had she come before, the feeling and impact of coming to the Lord's table meeting would have been entirely different. Now, after going through many things and learning many spiritual lessons, not just the matter of relationship and fellowship with the Lord but also with the local church according the truth of the Bible, it was mush more meaningful. And I trust their coming is out of the Lord's leading and also the answer to the prayers of the saints.

Fellowship : Prayer and Pray-Reading

The joy of fellowship in not in the act of fellowshipping in an outward way, but the flow of the divine life from the throne and out of the Lamb into us and among us and through us. I have, perhaps, been in many fellowships. But the recent experiences the Lord graced me with the brothers I am coordinating with in the church's service and also in the service arrangement were very refreshing.

As we came together, we prayed and prayed and released our burdens through the release of the spirit. The Spirit's flow was so sweet and strong, and we enjoyed praying together in one accord. Every item we had the burden to fellowshipped about were all prayed for and the burdens were already released. By the time we finished prayer, we all knew, the Lord had answered our prayers and that all the burdens have been released. It was a spiritual and practical fellowship. Mingled with this was a pray-reading of the word of God that added oil to the burning flame. The word of God solidified all the uttered prayers. Besides, it was so soothing and supplementing.

Similar case happened today again in my literature fellowship. Prayer and pray-reading, I found, was the best way to fellowship. In prayer, we released the burden for fellowship, and in pray-reading we documented the released burdens. O what a blessing to recover this way of prayer and pray-reading fellowship. By the time we finished our prayer and pray-reading all we were all very clear what the we should do related to what we we intended to fellowship upon. Prayer and the word made it all crystal clear.

I have just cited the above two incidents, but there were many such cases in the past too. This is one of the precious items the Lord has recovered for His children. Prayer in one accord, the Spirit mingled with our spirits and the rhema word of the Lord as spirit and life are the inevitable ingredients for sweet fellowship. Apart from these, fellowship is just mere discussion of a secular-official board meeting with resolutions democratically or diplomatically passed for many dead agendas. Fellowship is the flow of life from the Head to the members through all the members of the Body. The most effective and enjoyable way is by prayer and pray-reading the word.

Lord, fill all my fellowship with prayer and pray-reading.

Honor Thy Parent

Since the Lord had called me to serve full time I had no choice but to be under the sovereign will of the Father who had called me. Though my parent opposed it to the uttermost, the glorious vision of Christ and His Church captured me; and the burden to be fully in the Master's service even unto death has been my life-long consecration. All these by the grace of God has hitherto being carried out till today. Nevertheless, my responsibility as the eldest son, in the humanity of Jesus could not be overlooked. Whenever, the Lord provided, blessed and led me to, I in oneness with the Lord and my wife, would offer however much we can, as per the Lord's blessings, to my parent; a cherishing in the humanity of Jesus. And so, I remain open to my parent's beck and call. Often, their call is an alert for me to carry out my righteous responsibility which is honorably due.

Recently, the Lord has blessed us so much, and the leading of the Lord was so peaceful to offer to my family through my dad. It was not a less amount monetarily, and in joy with praise and thanksgiving to the God who blesses, we offered. I reckon this as "honoring thy parent." And it was such a blessing to be blessed by blessing our own family with the Lord's blessings.

Once again, the Lord gave us another opportunity to offer to our family's need few days ago. Initially I wasn't sure if we should go ahead with it because I would not do things just because somebody asked me to do it, or I would not help others just because there is a need to help. I would not dare to allow my natural "good man" to do as he pleases. But rather would prefer such good deeds be put to dead and let the Spirit's leading be supreme above all circumstances. But as I went before the Lord, I was reminded of this verse in Ephesian 6:2, "Honor your father and mother.." Then in so doing I felt so joyful to be able to meet the needs of my family through the Lord's superabundant blessings.

Practically, this is just one of the ways we can honor our parents. Honoring may be in different forms, means and ways. It could be psychological, physical and spiritual. It all depends on when and how the Lord leads. 

What an honor to be able to honor our own parent! All and only by the Lord's blessings.

Life Lesson : Prayer and Preparation

After a decade of graduating from a scholastic life, the Lord has opened a decade's dream of learning the Biblical Greek. I took this as the Lord's provision and with much prayer and preparation I labored as when I was a student, decades ago. One simple rule of "success" that I always follow, "Pray and Prepare; Do Thy Best, God Will Do the Rest." This rule never fails me till date. I don't believe in superstitious and blind faith when what is due on our part is not done.  So in this Greek learning, I prayed and trusted the Lord for His wisdom, knowledge and understanding and the grace to be diligent, faithful and fruitful.

Every exercise, I have labored enough with revisions over and over again. And every test  I attempted till its a full score, not just for the sake of marks, but much for the learning of the Word of God. My recent experience was quite something. 

As the Greek first exam was due by yesterday, I tried my best to find time to prepare thoroughly well. But every attempt was distracted by something or the other. Many impromptu appointments broke my plan to study. But these were not lame excuses, they were genuine cases pertaining to the church life and the services I am responsible to bear in all faithfulness.  Finally, at the fag end of the dateline, I could steal time to study and study. Perhaps, revised it over and over again until I felt I am ready to be tested in all angles. 

Then came the due time, and confident in the Lord, I took the test. The prayer-preparation method I adopted was quite alarming, as it was a success. To my surprise, I score 100%! I almost can't believe it. Though I prepared well and knew almost all the questions asked, few questions were very doubtful. But as I attempted, I felt the Lord guiding me inwardly as to what the right answers were. Quite amazing! What my preparation part could not cope up with, the prayer part complemented it. The Lord knows the desire of our heart and out attitude toward everything. When our part is faithfully carried out, He is bound to bless by all means. Otherwise, He would be unrighteous in not blessing. 

This is a simple and small lessons learned, but the principle is applicable universally.

Lord, grace me be a faithful student of Yours; to pray and prepare and command Thy blessings.

Prayer : Training a Child

Train up a child according to the way he should go; Even when he is old, he will not depart from it. Proverbs 22:6

The Lord has taught us and has been gracing us to inculcate in our children the love of God, the reverend fear of God, the trust in God and the prayer in Jesus' Name from the time their conscience started functioning. And we have developed the practice of reading the Bible daily with them and prayer as much as possible; when getting up, before every meal, while dropping and picking them up from the school, before going to bed and literally, whenever there is an opportunity. These habits, whether spiritual or ritual, must be a living, a discipline and a character, I believe so. May the Lord adjust and correct me, if they are wrong. And we have been enjoying the Lord's blessings and presence in our lives.

My son is just four years old and first daughter six years old. They started experiencing the Lord in a very subjective way. Now, they know, there is a God called the Lord Jesus Christ, and there is none else. And they also are learning to trust in this living God and would not accept any other gods introduced in the school by their non-believer teachers. 

Today, my son and his friend were playing with his friend's cycle. And the cycle broke down with a bolt and a nut fallen apart. They both had been scrambling through the ground looking for the missing parts. Helpless and desperate to find them, my son asked his friend if they could pray together simply by asking the Lord Jesus to help them find. They both called upon the Lord Jesus's Name and prayed for the recovery of the lost and broken cycle parts. Quite encouragingly, they found the missing parts right away. Later, my son narrated his experience with Jesus to his mother, my wife, and then to me. O what a blessing to hear the testimony of our children experiencing the Lord!

My daughter too had been studying and laboring hard for her studies, especially Hindi, a foreign language to her. However, we always taught them to pray to Jesus for wisdom, knowledge and understanding. At the same time, help them to study on time and thoroughly. Then this week on two occasions she told me she scored 100% in the class tests in Hindi and other subjects too. To encourage her, I just treated them ice cream of their choice and promised them for a day out to a mall for lunch and for kids' day out.

These are just a foretaste. Still trusting the Lord and looking to Him for more grace to continue in His presence and His blessing, even unto all the days of our lives.

Lord, train us to train our children in Your ways.